Rocketeer

You find bliss in the randomest of places, like last night in the taxi ride home, i had a very good conversation with the taxi driver, not really a dnm but it was just one of those convos that just made things seem alright. This whole week has been rather =| and i guess all i really needed was a really good dnm with someone. It sucks when the people you can have them with either are busy with work, busy with other stuff, say they are gonna call you but forget, their msn fails, doing other random stuff or are just mia when you need a dnm the most. I don't blame them cause lifes like that but it sucks, i mean the convo with the taxi driver wasn't a dnm but it sort of got me better, being able to talk to a random about just random stuff and not having the conversation end. But yeah..

Last night was pretty random, i cant be bothered going into details but alot of fkd up shit happened.

Define Yourself.

i woke up feeling pretty shitty today, i guess sleeping at 4am for no reason and waking up early had something to do with it. i should really stop sleeping late such a bad habit. Quite a random day today, friend came over at around 11 then studied till 3 ish then he left, then from 3 onwards till now i did not know what the fuck i did, though i had a couple of interesting conversations today with people. A friend made me realise somethings today, like it was a big slap across the face when she mentioned it, sort of like how say one of your friends is doing something annoying and you dont see it, but then another friend tells you about that annoying thing your friend is doing then bam a glass shatters in your head and you realise that thing that is annoying. I don't know if that was a good explanation but yeah anyways my friend just made me realised all these things about me which i never realised about myself and i was just like "dayuummm", another friend asked me to "define yourself" and i had no answer to that so it sort of got me thinking so i guess thats what ive been doing for the past say like 8 hours and to be honest i haven't come up with anything and it's sorta bugging me that i haven't like fuck im nearly 20 i should be able to know what i want to be later on in life but here i am stuck still being immature.

Cannonball

It's weird how when someone tells you to listen to a batch of songs and from those songs as you start listening to each of them, certain songs that have certain lyrics seem apply to your life right now. cannonball by damien rice and long gone and moved on by script seem to be like getting to me.

These past 3 days Friday-Sunday have been pretty damn just =|, Im sucha stooge. I should stop being in limbo and just say what i wanna say, i should stop overthinking everything, i should stop being so god damn caught up in my thoughts. I'm sorry for being an idiot/retard/douchebag.

Winter Wars

I'm not really in the best of moods, i'm pretty annoyed and edgy at a lot of things. This whole week has just been pretty exhausting and i guess the near sleepless nights are getting to me. It's been a pretty long week, tuesday - bball training, wednesday - hotel party, thursday - haircut/ matt lee's hotpot and today - basketball training again, tomorrow - basktball game/ mums birthday party. Pretty damn long week. The hotel party was pretty tb, like really tb. I should've drank more but got there late and most of the alchohol was already gone so oh wells. The jog home that night was wtf cause theres some roadwork at Padstow so the nightride dropped me off at the other side and i had to jog at least 3kms to get home. Matt's hotpot was fun even though most of the night i was like sorta sleeping cause i had like an hour sleep the night before. SO i guess this week was alright, but i still cant help but feel annoyed at stuff. I feel exhausted and it sucks cause when it gets to the sleeping part of the day it takes me a while to actually fall asleep. Whats even more random is i woke up this morning with blood on my pillow and when i washed my face in the morning i realised i had this random cut on my lip. Don't even know how i got it, keeps bleeding every now and then. This cold weather is just too ownage.

dot dot dot

Another cold night where i'm up mega late again thinking about everything. An odd feeling overcame me tonight and it wasn't a good feeling. I guess the realisation of how shit my results were this semester hit me. I failed accounting yet again due to my lack of focus and no motivation to study. fml seriously. I'm at another crossroads in my life where i need some answers..I feel so lost, lost in this endless grind day in and day out.





ps. shoutout to ware kuo, i know you stalk my blogs you sucka

The motivation for me was them telling me what i couldn't be... oh well

It's been a while since i blogged... again. Truth be told i just cant be bothered thinking about what to post. My life's pretty boring.

But anyways i'm just posting this to remind myself about the slapbet i made today with Lucia. Basically the bet is for this semester we must get distinctions or higher for all our subjects this semester. If a person does not get a distinction for every subject the other person has a right to slap them according to how many subjects they did not get a distinction in.

It's a good motivational bet. So time to study up...or not...?



ps. heres a reminder of my first slapbet i won.

http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=178345235345&subj=849425345

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hi matt

hi matt=D