Lost in this world.

the shittest feeling is waking up in the morning vomiting out last nights dinner due to alchohol
and fuck me dead i have that now, vomited twice and that fucked up thing is i wasnt even drunk last night just tipsy fuck i feel so shit.

well if you havent noticed yeah my blog changed its layout sorta, its kinda like garmons(soz man!) but yeah the colours reflects alot of things now(tell me if the reds too like blinding bt yeah not like anyone visits this blog ), i dont even know where to begin to start or to end so yeah i dont think ill be fucked to talk about everythings

ARGH !1@?!? its too much sigh

lets rewind one day back, woke up at like sometime got ready got a lift to franks house got into bonds car and drove to usyd,
fuck usyd was a waste of time, got there and saw alot of people including fucking shantelle, fuck shes like a bad omen everytime i see her some shit happens why?!? or is it just me being superstituous and blaming everything on everyone, personally if i was in a right state of mind i would choose option b coz yeah i do that and ive realised ( thanks garmon for pointing it out) but since im in a mood where im blaming the world for my problems i would choose option a, but yeah after all the hooplah we bolted out of usyd into the bond mobile and went to central, parked there walked to ct hunta to play some good ol dota, i was happy with the first game, but the two games after i felt shit coz i lost sigh, shit feeling losing but yeah
after that me bruce bondy alias jay and huynh walked to town hall to drop huynh off then walked to martin place to meet up with bianca and shit and yeah then went to the restaurant.
then some stuff happened
danny bought some alchohol ( ps danny if your reading this i love you, your the goldest fuck ever)
and yeah i drank some, i kinda got tipsy.. im such a lightweight and yeah i cbb explaining the party too mcuh stuff happened it was pretty gold but yeah after we bolted from dinner we walked to star city, bond won $70 while me lazy wendie and danny were stuck outside since we were 17 (danny was 18 but he was too cool and hanged with the cool young'ns ) but yeah we waited outside playing that plushie game , fuck danny won like a plush on his first turn then after a few tries we ended up losing $24 fucking rigged machine but yeah bond and stuff finished then met up with them again then walked to get some alki. sigh i got so pwnt i vomitted after like some vodka fuck that shit burned my throat but yeah i dunno for a certain period of time that night i felt so emo, just that feeling of wanting to cry but the tears not coming out, its so shit i had that and yeah vic and danny helped by letting me listen to some good music and yeah.. sigh anyways after we all scrambled home went to bonds car got a lift to bevo then got picked up at bevo by my parents.

i got home at like 12:30 last night
god bless my parents, actually drove to bevo and picked me up
and yeah i just felt so shit when i got home
i hate it when the whole house is so quiet, it just makes me ponder and thats when shit happens
i think too much and i end up in some spiral that goes on forever; its like a slippery dip where i keep sliding down but theres no end, theres just darkness ahead.
after a while i had that feeling again where you know you want to cry, but the tears dont come out, thats like the worse depressing feeling you could get, but yeah i called garmon at 1am or something and yeah just talked abt shit, i cried on the phone in the last few mins before i hung up sigh it didnt help i still felt shit, its like i didnt cry everything out but yeah i dont know, i eventually took up garmons advice to just preoccupy myself to get to sleep ended up playing my sisters DS and playing kirby god that game is good but yeah slept at 2:30(thats when i checked) and yeah i woke up pretty early at like 7:30 and yeah here i am after two toilet bowels of vomit blogging again

i need to start blogging again, must keep this alive.

;sss jor12# ! KD:" KA:pp[SL;'FKJS;ALFASFSA

my plans for to today are to go state give jess money and go home
what a day

fuck this
laters.

Energy

ah its been a while since i last blogged. fuck you garmon this blog isnt dead.
anyways yeah alot of shit has happened in my life as of recent. i dunno why i dont blog. maybe its coz im not bothered, nah i think its coz i just dont find time anymore to blog but yeah. i have time now. since im a 4day break till my next exam.

lol yeah trials are on. fuck me dead. I FAILED MATHS LIKE EPICLY, well i dunno it was just the shittest feeling ever, i got out of the exam like feeling alright but yeah after a long journey to state after pondering and shit abt it, i felt shit and yeah

i also had a english exam on monday, which i did alright in. i think =S
anyways yesterday was preh fucken random
i was in the shittest mood. like shittest ever. and yeah it started in the morning and ended at night. sigh im sorry to everyone that my mood affected. i didnt mean to be dickhead and all jsut a shit day for me sorry =/
anyawys yeah yesterday was epic shitness sigh i hope it dosent happen in my other few tests

FUCK HSC

anyways i cbb blogging abt anything else.
laters.