i wish i was gifted at something. i seriously dont know what im talented at or what makes me unique. i feel normal. well these days i do..
anyways not much hsa happened. i went to bball outing today. it was alright though at first i feel like i didnt belong but after a while i kinda eased in. i have like some sort of cut above my right eye. it looks kinda cool but yeah. i think i got it while i was trying to drive someone accidentally just hit me. i started bleeding a bit but yeah. it looks kinds cool not as cool as squalls forehead scar from final fantasy 8. but still ill get there.
but yeah
my mood is still kinda weird.
i still have stuff to print out and etc.
going to uni today to buy txtbooks and stuff.
hopefully get my student id.
fuck txtbooks $400 plus
anyways its gonna be short.
gonna poker with bobby now
laters.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tiny Little Fractures
life is good....
no not reallay
sigh as you all may know i started uni this week. yeah a week but fuck it feels like a month has passed by. all those early morning starts and all the travel im doing is kinda killing me. making me mega stressed and the workload so far is quite a bit. at first glance the units and subjects i was doing was alright but after numerous clicking and downloading off the website fuck theres alot of shit i need to do. its getting me all stressed the fuck out and yeah. i need to vent. uni isnt what all its cracked up to be. but mayeb thats just me i guess. jsut the long ass travel and just the whole work is fucking me over. and on top of that i hafta buy like 5 textbooks which are all around $100 each with the exception of 1 or 2 which is like atleast $450 in total. fuckkkkkkkkkkk
why is uni so fucked up. sigh anyways yeah im pretty much on the verge of being mega stressed. sometimes i feel like i need to cry and i dont know why just that feeling under your eyes jsut wants to squint out a tear of some sort. its so =/
i someitmes just think and i get all emo and kinda depressed its kinda sucked up. i just dont myself atm. little cracks are showing which werent there before.
hopefully i can get used to the whole workload. or just get used to it all. i feel like giving up? well not really but i get those thoughts. fuck i need inspiration to be able to do what i do. and thats to work hard and harder. sigh...
anyways i started this blog post at like i dunno 8 or something and yeah its taken me a while to finish. been kinda busy doing random stuff. was talking to alias about relatives and stuff and how if he got an offer to go study uni overseas if he'd take it. i rkn now if that offer was put right infront of me id take it and study for year . i kinda miss my relatives jsut talking to alias and talking about his experiences in malay and how he got really close to his relos, really touched me in a way. i kinda regret not having the utmost fun when i was in philippines two years ago. i wonder if ill be able to go back at the end of this year to chill and stuff. itd be pretty good and just seeing relos. arghh so carefree those times..
and i was talking to rich earlier. we were having a dnm or just chatting in deepness. its good having these chats once in a while. its kinda helped me ease up to the max. so thanks richard if you ever read this i ruv you richard <3
and not so long ago i was talking to chris. me and him have pretty epic convos. fullay sick man. should catch up with that sucka more often.
anyways fuck this blog i think i did at 8 its like 2am now. i lagged to the max soz guys. im pretty much alright now with everything my emotions are kinda intact hopefully it stays like that and i can get back on top of things
anyways ive got bball 2mr so i better sleep l
aters.
cant get you out of my mind - aqualung <-- good song
ps. title is a song by Snow Patrol :)
to be honest. ive thought this all through and yeah i do want you... but just i dunno you prob dont. its weird. i want this and i rkn after this is all sorted out everything else will be put in this place and ill get on top of things sigh. i wonder if youll read this. if you do then yeah lol.:) now you know..theres so many things i want to tell you but yeah i never really get the chance or i get nervous. i say alot of things i just dont know what youll think of it all. maybe i should get around to telling you truthfully abt it all SIGHHHHHHHH arghhhhhh.. to be continued...
no not reallay
sigh as you all may know i started uni this week. yeah a week but fuck it feels like a month has passed by. all those early morning starts and all the travel im doing is kinda killing me. making me mega stressed and the workload so far is quite a bit. at first glance the units and subjects i was doing was alright but after numerous clicking and downloading off the website fuck theres alot of shit i need to do. its getting me all stressed the fuck out and yeah. i need to vent. uni isnt what all its cracked up to be. but mayeb thats just me i guess. jsut the long ass travel and just the whole work is fucking me over. and on top of that i hafta buy like 5 textbooks which are all around $100 each with the exception of 1 or 2 which is like atleast $450 in total. fuckkkkkkkkkkk
why is uni so fucked up. sigh anyways yeah im pretty much on the verge of being mega stressed. sometimes i feel like i need to cry and i dont know why just that feeling under your eyes jsut wants to squint out a tear of some sort. its so =/
i someitmes just think and i get all emo and kinda depressed its kinda sucked up. i just dont myself atm. little cracks are showing which werent there before.
hopefully i can get used to the whole workload. or just get used to it all. i feel like giving up? well not really but i get those thoughts. fuck i need inspiration to be able to do what i do. and thats to work hard and harder. sigh...
anyways i started this blog post at like i dunno 8 or something and yeah its taken me a while to finish. been kinda busy doing random stuff. was talking to alias about relatives and stuff and how if he got an offer to go study uni overseas if he'd take it. i rkn now if that offer was put right infront of me id take it and study for year . i kinda miss my relatives jsut talking to alias and talking about his experiences in malay and how he got really close to his relos, really touched me in a way. i kinda regret not having the utmost fun when i was in philippines two years ago. i wonder if ill be able to go back at the end of this year to chill and stuff. itd be pretty good and just seeing relos. arghh so carefree those times..
and i was talking to rich earlier. we were having a dnm or just chatting in deepness. its good having these chats once in a while. its kinda helped me ease up to the max. so thanks richard if you ever read this i ruv you richard <3
and not so long ago i was talking to chris. me and him have pretty epic convos. fullay sick man. should catch up with that sucka more often.
anyways fuck this blog i think i did at 8 its like 2am now. i lagged to the max soz guys. im pretty much alright now with everything my emotions are kinda intact hopefully it stays like that and i can get back on top of things
anyways ive got bball 2mr so i better sleep l
aters.
cant get you out of my mind - aqualung <-- good song
ps. title is a song by Snow Patrol :)
to be honest. ive thought this all through and yeah i do want you... but just i dunno you prob dont. its weird. i want this and i rkn after this is all sorted out everything else will be put in this place and ill get on top of things sigh. i wonder if youll read this. if you do then yeah lol.:) now you know..theres so many things i want to tell you but yeah i never really get the chance or i get nervous. i say alot of things i just dont know what youll think of it all. maybe i should get around to telling you truthfully abt it all SIGHHHHHHHH arghhhhhh.. to be continued...
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Somebodys Me.
i dunno why i chose that to be the blog title. but its the current song thats playing. and i err... can somehow relate to it ? haha
anyways its been a while since ive blogged. sad days . i always come to about to blog then i forget. i should really blog more often it kinda helps relieve stress somewhat. we'll see later down in the track when uni has consumed my life and the workload pwns me.
anyways uni started this week. there are alot of ppl in my course and ive met a quite few people that i thought i would only see every once in a while. its pretty random. but im coping. the long 1 and a half hour travel is the only thing that is killing me. so far and i dont know but i think i can top this shit in at least two units. marketing and accounting. its coz most of the topics are relating back to business studies yr 11/yr12 course so yeah. im hopeing i dont slack off and finally fken pwn something in life. i really need to pick up the slack this year, after hearing to waht one of my 2nd year friends said. transferring is gonna be a bitch. well apparently. and it scares me a little. i dont want to spend like 4hours a day travelling to uni and back home. i just need to fken balance but its hard. ill figure it out. ive gotten all my shit anyways from the website so i should be set for this long grueling semester. hopefully i can pwn this shit till examinations come and make a chance at transferring at the mid semester break. farkkk...
anywyas i havent really met much people at uni. ive been hanging with frank alot and yeah. though in tutorial today picked up some mushu well not really just asked her to come join our grp project thing. but besides that i havent really gone out and socialised. i dont know to be honest i dnt feel a connection with me and the uni its kidna weird. i dont feel like i belong. its jsut differnet to me..sigh.
anyways i told that girl i lik(ed) ?!!? that i liekd her today. it turned out okay,
still wtf is wrong with me
im so indecisive ? (undecisive)
i needta figure it out
fuck
anwyays
2mr
should i go unsw o day to fk around?
who knows...
laters.
anyways its been a while since ive blogged. sad days . i always come to about to blog then i forget. i should really blog more often it kinda helps relieve stress somewhat. we'll see later down in the track when uni has consumed my life and the workload pwns me.
anyways uni started this week. there are alot of ppl in my course and ive met a quite few people that i thought i would only see every once in a while. its pretty random. but im coping. the long 1 and a half hour travel is the only thing that is killing me. so far and i dont know but i think i can top this shit in at least two units. marketing and accounting. its coz most of the topics are relating back to business studies yr 11/yr12 course so yeah. im hopeing i dont slack off and finally fken pwn something in life. i really need to pick up the slack this year, after hearing to waht one of my 2nd year friends said. transferring is gonna be a bitch. well apparently. and it scares me a little. i dont want to spend like 4hours a day travelling to uni and back home. i just need to fken balance but its hard. ill figure it out. ive gotten all my shit anyways from the website so i should be set for this long grueling semester. hopefully i can pwn this shit till examinations come and make a chance at transferring at the mid semester break. farkkk...
anywyas i havent really met much people at uni. ive been hanging with frank alot and yeah. though in tutorial today picked up some mushu well not really just asked her to come join our grp project thing. but besides that i havent really gone out and socialised. i dont know to be honest i dnt feel a connection with me and the uni its kidna weird. i dont feel like i belong. its jsut differnet to me..sigh.
anyways i told that girl i lik(ed) ?!!? that i liekd her today. it turned out okay,
still wtf is wrong with me
im so indecisive ? (undecisive)
i needta figure it out
fuck
anwyays
2mr
should i go unsw o day to fk around?
who knows...
laters.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
"k" is for . . .
You leave a comment on this post, and I’ll assign you a letter. You write about ten things you love that begin with your assigned letter, and post it at your place. When people comment on your list, you give them a letter, and the chain continues on and on.
liz gave me the letter k for the ten things i have to write about. so let's get crackin'
#1. k is for kindness, people need to have some once in a while.
#2. k is for KFC, which i love the most, and that i am craving right now.
#3. k is for kirby, the video game character which i spent endless time playing while i was in year 6.
#4. k is for kiwis, which are a mega awesome fruit
#5. k is for kindergarten, the year that nothing never matter, so care free.. wish life was like that now..
#6. k is for kryptonite, the thing that owned superman (wtf..).
#7. k is for kissing, which is fun dehehe.
#8. k is for Kimbo, the guy we watched during high school in the comps and laughed at his tankedness. good times.
#9. k is for kitchen, the place where i raid every now and then for food, good shit.
#10. k is for kinky. seriously. everyone is......... dehehe
garmon do 'm"
leah do " j"
wendie do " o"
=]
Monday, February 9, 2009
Happy Birthday 2 Me deeheh
WOO im ONE EIGHT, 18, labing walo na ako.. hehhe
it was a pretty fun day today, woke up at around 12 and had like some unread msgs, so thanks everyone who wished me a happy birthday today, really meant alot to me :)
anyways txted people about the outing today, and eventually met up with chris leith at central clocks at around 4. not long after black dog caame (bill) and shortly after roger. jackee and david were running late so we just headed off. got to beyond net cafe and saw bobby. we started to play some cod 5 the david and jackee arrived and we played warlocks
gotta admit, it was pretty epic times, it was 2 v 2 v 2, me leith, jackee and david, and james and bill. good times just targetting black dog, and just haivng epic battles but yeah. anyways david had to leave coz he was meeting someone , sad departure, but then garmon came, it was good seeing that sucka. then yeah afterwards we just watched chris play farcry for a bit then left. we trekked it all the way to central and we lost garmon chris and bill but eventually found them along with jeff mish and iris. had some jap food at some place called the eating mart or something. MAN FULLY GOOD JAP SHIT. made me have a stomachgasm but yes. ate there then played pool.
overall my day was pretty memorable. with the random calls from garmon and chris " chicken desu" and "xic lo" to jackee saying " im out of mana" when we asked hi mfor his phone. gold times
so THANKS EVERYBODY FOR MAKING THIS SUCHA GOOD FUNNY AND MEMORABLE DAY FOR ME:)
thanks for all the bday wishes everyone :)
and on a special note. thanks alias sucka for calling me this arvo. fully made me happy when you called in a non gay way. so thanks man !
come back soon you sucka
anyways thanks once again to everybody that came today, garmon chris roger james jackee david bill iris mish and jeff:)
and thanks to everyone who sent me facebook msgs and sms's today, ill reply soon :)
laters.
it was a pretty fun day today, woke up at around 12 and had like some unread msgs, so thanks everyone who wished me a happy birthday today, really meant alot to me :)
anyways txted people about the outing today, and eventually met up with chris leith at central clocks at around 4. not long after black dog caame (bill) and shortly after roger. jackee and david were running late so we just headed off. got to beyond net cafe and saw bobby. we started to play some cod 5 the david and jackee arrived and we played warlocks
gotta admit, it was pretty epic times, it was 2 v 2 v 2, me leith, jackee and david, and james and bill. good times just targetting black dog, and just haivng epic battles but yeah. anyways david had to leave coz he was meeting someone , sad departure, but then garmon came, it was good seeing that sucka. then yeah afterwards we just watched chris play farcry for a bit then left. we trekked it all the way to central and we lost garmon chris and bill but eventually found them along with jeff mish and iris. had some jap food at some place called the eating mart or something. MAN FULLY GOOD JAP SHIT. made me have a stomachgasm but yes. ate there then played pool.
overall my day was pretty memorable. with the random calls from garmon and chris " chicken desu" and "xic lo" to jackee saying " im out of mana" when we asked hi mfor his phone. gold times
so THANKS EVERYBODY FOR MAKING THIS SUCHA GOOD FUNNY AND MEMORABLE DAY FOR ME:)
thanks for all the bday wishes everyone :)
and on a special note. thanks alias sucka for calling me this arvo. fully made me happy when you called in a non gay way. so thanks man !
come back soon you sucka
anyways thanks once again to everybody that came today, garmon chris roger james jackee david bill iris mish and jeff:)
and thanks to everyone who sent me facebook msgs and sms's today, ill reply soon :)
laters.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Just So You Know/ epic blog in my head?
this post fully sounded epic in my head but i think about it now its not really but yeah anyways.
coogee beach today :D
went with garmon, leah, chris, richard , willy, steve, ware, roger, kenny, mishjeff, sean and magrat. got to central at around 10:30 but ended up leaving there at like 11:30 coz of suckas ( garmon, chris, leah, ware) being late. but yeah eventually got set to go coogee. along the way leah gave me some naruto thing from philipppines ( which i just opened now). turned out to be a keychain of some sort of kisame i think his name is. pretty cool SO THANKS LEAH :D anyways i felt kinda bad at the time coz leah was like the only girl there >< but hope she had fun though :D so yes if your reading this. i know you are you better of have had fun *looks with glaring eyes* ^^v anyways got on the bus to coogee and got there in around 20mins or so. we decided to eat at Fivo's or something for $5 steak. i ordered medium rare. kinda wish i got well done. mine looked like it was mega rare so i was mega sad. but it was nice with gravy and chips so i guess it was worth it. anyways got down to the beach and did the usual, swim, suck around and listen to garmon and chris' mad beatboxing and guitaring skills. i went with leah to look around for a slurpee coz richard told us. but he lied so instead i shouted her some icecream. after that i think we left or i swam again. i cant remember but yeah eventually got to maccas and i thought abt writing this blog haha. had an awkward moment at maccas which me and garmon just laughed at. (mish's underwear fell on the ground while garmon was talking) but yeah preh awkward but funny haha eventualyl got on d bus and got to central and parted ways. i fell asleep on the train ride home. preh tiring. but overall a relaxing day.
i thought alot at the beach today. good epic times thinking about stuff. i figured some stuff out but also found more stuff to think about and figure out, thought about all these possibilities and yeah. theres like one thing on my mind to the max now but nuff bout that. its liek that with me i guess. damn my brain and its thinking ways. wish i could turn off the traffic that occurs in it. but i never can hah
alias is on msn finally for once. talking to him so its good times.
anyways i think im going garmons house 2mr with leah to watch some movie. i was fully thinking in the shower. i think we should do an epic youtube vid at garmons. :D
anyways till next time
laters.
coogee beach today :D
went with garmon, leah, chris, richard , willy, steve, ware, roger, kenny, mishjeff, sean and magrat. got to central at around 10:30 but ended up leaving there at like 11:30 coz of suckas ( garmon, chris, leah, ware) being late. but yeah eventually got set to go coogee. along the way leah gave me some naruto thing from philipppines ( which i just opened now). turned out to be a keychain of some sort of kisame i think his name is. pretty cool SO THANKS LEAH :D anyways i felt kinda bad at the time coz leah was like the only girl there >< but hope she had fun though :D so yes if your reading this. i know you are you better of have had fun *looks with glaring eyes* ^^v anyways got on the bus to coogee and got there in around 20mins or so. we decided to eat at Fivo's or something for $5 steak. i ordered medium rare. kinda wish i got well done. mine looked like it was mega rare so i was mega sad. but it was nice with gravy and chips so i guess it was worth it. anyways got down to the beach and did the usual, swim, suck around and listen to garmon and chris' mad beatboxing and guitaring skills. i went with leah to look around for a slurpee coz richard told us. but he lied so instead i shouted her some icecream. after that i think we left or i swam again. i cant remember but yeah eventually got to maccas and i thought abt writing this blog haha. had an awkward moment at maccas which me and garmon just laughed at. (mish's underwear fell on the ground while garmon was talking) but yeah preh awkward but funny haha eventualyl got on d bus and got to central and parted ways. i fell asleep on the train ride home. preh tiring. but overall a relaxing day.
i thought alot at the beach today. good epic times thinking about stuff. i figured some stuff out but also found more stuff to think about and figure out, thought about all these possibilities and yeah. theres like one thing on my mind to the max now but nuff bout that. its liek that with me i guess. damn my brain and its thinking ways. wish i could turn off the traffic that occurs in it. but i never can hah
alias is on msn finally for once. talking to him so its good times.
anyways i think im going garmons house 2mr with leah to watch some movie. i was fully thinking in the shower. i think we should do an epic youtube vid at garmons. :D
anyways till next time
laters.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Makes Me Wonder
i just got back from basketball from central not so long ago. feeling pretty tired atm but felt like blogging as well. to be honest i kinda feel the slightest bit emo. just been thinking (as usual) about random stuff.
i dont get why i care. but i do?
anyways im out
laters.
i dont get why i care. but i do?
anyways im out
laters.
Monday, February 2, 2009
We Build Than We Break
this is like my first back 2 back post in ages. but yeah i felt like blogging a short post so here it is. hmms the aus open final finished not so long ago, and besides the many ups and downs. federer lost =(. it was pretty sad while i was on facebook said something like " aww federer is crying" to be honest that kinda made me feel quite sad inside. to have a man like him cry kinda gets to you. he worked so hard but nadal jsut wouldnt fk off. sigh.. sad times...
anyways besides that today was a fken scorcher at least 40 degrees i rememebr waking up all sweaty and my room feeling all hot aired. didnt like that but yeah. didnt do much. to be honest im trying to cut down on my computer time. it overheats and stuff i jsut dont wanna waste electricity as well during this recession.
alot of feelings have come across me these days. atm im feeling quite sad and confused. confused. well i dont know who to explain it. but yeah oh btw i saw clare today. it was weird. anyways yeah i have a uni thing to attend to 2mr.
anyways off to sleep ( quite early for me)
laters.
anyways besides that today was a fken scorcher at least 40 degrees i rememebr waking up all sweaty and my room feeling all hot aired. didnt like that but yeah. didnt do much. to be honest im trying to cut down on my computer time. it overheats and stuff i jsut dont wanna waste electricity as well during this recession.
alot of feelings have come across me these days. atm im feeling quite sad and confused. confused. well i dont know who to explain it. but yeah oh btw i saw clare today. it was weird. anyways yeah i have a uni thing to attend to 2mr.
anyways off to sleep ( quite early for me)
laters.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
I Will Follow You Into The Dark
sorry that i havent been blogging lately. ive been caught up in a lot of stuff. well not really just been getting distracted with like anime, tv shows and movies. and sometimes wiki and yeah soz. anyways nothing much has been happening lately. everyones been just in the Cbf mood and just not going out. its kinda sucks coz no one organises cept me but yeah. had alot of good outings though. like beach outing at coogee was preh cool. bball and stuff. not badd but yeah.
i finished fate stay night yesterday arvo. and i must say its in my top 5 animes.
it now goes
1. Code Geass
2. Shuffle
3. Fate Stay Night
4. Getbackers
5. Air Gear
that was preh random but yeah xD
also caught up with scrubs last night as well. pretty epic stuff. its back to the old scrubs and im mega happy though im mega angry coz new how i met your mother hasnt come out >=[
my blog title refers to a song by deathcab for cutie. its a good song and kinda just got to me the way they used it in scrubs. garmon told me it was shit song choice but overall i rkn it was aight. its a calm and soothing song with some inner meaning nad yeah i like it. go download it :D
as sam says. i am emo. LOL NO IM NOT FUCK YOU SAMANTHA LUC GO MAKE LOVE TO BRUCE
hmms emo? well not really just deep in thought i guess. what to do for my birthday. alot of ideas have been tossed up. bbq, karaoke, star city eat out, i dunno ill figure out in due time. and i hafta figure out uni stuff as well.
anyways imma call it a night.
laters.
i finished fate stay night yesterday arvo. and i must say its in my top 5 animes.
it now goes
1. Code Geass
2. Shuffle
3. Fate Stay Night
4. Getbackers
5. Air Gear
that was preh random but yeah xD
also caught up with scrubs last night as well. pretty epic stuff. its back to the old scrubs and im mega happy though im mega angry coz new how i met your mother hasnt come out >=[
my blog title refers to a song by deathcab for cutie. its a good song and kinda just got to me the way they used it in scrubs. garmon told me it was shit song choice but overall i rkn it was aight. its a calm and soothing song with some inner meaning nad yeah i like it. go download it :D
as sam says. i am emo. LOL NO IM NOT FUCK YOU SAMANTHA LUC GO MAKE LOVE TO BRUCE
hmms emo? well not really just deep in thought i guess. what to do for my birthday. alot of ideas have been tossed up. bbq, karaoke, star city eat out, i dunno ill figure out in due time. and i hafta figure out uni stuff as well.
anyways imma call it a night.
laters.
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