For the last 5 days ive been out and about, constantly waking up mega early and getting ready and leaving the house at around 11. Such a change from the first two weeks of holidays where all i did was sleep all day and just be bored of life. I'll just basically recap what happened the past few days
Wednesday - Me and Richard went to Burwood RSL to play some poker. I did pretty alright and played my cards but in the end i guess just wasnt my day. On the other hand Richie ended up coming 3rd it was pretty gold. Anyways after it i went to the city as usual and hung out with Bill Garmon Richard and Chris. We went to charlie chans first and bruce came drank a couple of beers then watched origin. The atmosphere wasnt as good so we ended up going Cheers Bar and watching it. Pretty sad though NSW lost so its pretty douchey but yeah. IT was a good night just hanging and chillin and watching white guys rage and stuff pretty funny. Got home at around 11:30 that night.
Thursday - I went out to bondi to get AMANDA's present at build a bear. I woke up mega early at like 8 so i could get there early to avoid the whole rush of people shopping. Leith tagged along and took me like a hour. Got there at 11 met up with leith went to the shop got the present and yeah i didnt wanna hang around cause i was mega tired so i went home and jst slept all afternoon.
Friday - Amanda's birthday thing. Again woke up mega early due to another like busy day. Got to city at around 10:30 to see Garmon then went off and trekked it to Macquarie. Macquarie is a pretty pro place. but yeah it was quite alright, just a pretty chills out day walking around and talking and yeah. The night was kinda fked up but yeah..
Saturday - First time i woke up quite late like aroudn 2ish. But i was going out in a hour so i just rolled arnd in bed then like got ready and went to burwood for poker again. I was doing alright but eventually died. But yeah ill just fast forward past poker at philips to after it where me, Roger, Philip and Richard just stayed back and talked for liek 5 hours. like literally 5 hrs from like 3 to 8 where we talked abt movies, conspiracy theories, aliens life and all this random stuff. I liked that 5 hour chat it was very like relaxing and yeah just like talking with them and catching up it was pretty funny. We went to 7/11 before and got like some ramen and chocolate and cooked it at philips and ate while we talked. We talked about the randomest shit but like yeah i like these times. Pretty relaxing times and yeah. Talked about heaps of movies that im gonna download like tonight. Got me pretty excited but yeah. Anyways i got home at 8:30 in the morning and just collapsed and slept and woke up at around 3.
All in all from all this ive come out with like a sickness and ive like lost my voice. So kinda mega sad but yeah i really liked just hanging out for these days it really got my mind of things.
After reading Garmon's post i think overall ive kinda matured and become a bit more serious about things. Like i remember talking at Philip's about like how sometimes we're idiots. Sometimes i like being the guy who makes everybody laugh, it's such a good feeling just seeing people smile and stuff. But yeah i think over these last few weeks i've kinda become more serious about things but then again i still loosen up and joke arnd and be sucka so its all good.
but i dont know i don't feel all the right at the moment. It's still kind of just bleh...
ANYWAYS
happy birthday amanda. =] hope all your dreams and wishes come true. LOL so douchey but yeah i was gonna txt you at 12. but i didnt wanna be cliche so i txtd you at 8 in the morning when you were like sleeping to be cool.
laters.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Hot And Cold
I don't get you at times. Sometimes you really confuse me.
Do what you gotta do. live your life the way you want it.
anyways to be honest i feel pretty down at the moment. fml.
Do what you gotta do. live your life the way you want it.
anyways to be honest i feel pretty down at the moment. fml.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Insomnia
Sleeping at 4am everyday isn't really a good thing. One it is very unhealthy as like i eat dinner at like 8 and i have no food till the next day when i wake up at 3 and Two that i wake up at 3pm the next day and like most of my day is gone. I don't even know why im up that late. I tend to get off the comp around 2:30-3 ish and somehow kill time till then in my room whether watching a movie or playing ps2 or just lying there thinking i have insomnia when i don't.
I've been out two times these holidays, Poker at rsl and basketball today. Time flies by when your like staying at home doing nothing but sleep, its already been 1 week of my holidays gone by already. Pretty fails i feel like i wasted a week just lagging around.
I feel quite shit at the moment. Not mentally but in the physical part. Playing basketball today for the first time in like 3 months really took a toll on my body. I feel mega fucked up my arms and legs are aching to the max i just feel so lazy and like feel like jelly sort of. Hopefully ill heal by the time i go job hunting on Tuesday.
Samantha noticed it that i havent been full happy lately. She explained it as things havent been lifting for me lately. Funnily enough lately ive been feeling kinda like i dunno just like i havent been entirely happy but i havent been sad. I don't know i guess theres somethings i would like to get off my chest, not now but later on.
anyways nothing much else to say.
tillz nextz timez.
laters.
I've been out two times these holidays, Poker at rsl and basketball today. Time flies by when your like staying at home doing nothing but sleep, its already been 1 week of my holidays gone by already. Pretty fails i feel like i wasted a week just lagging around.
I feel quite shit at the moment. Not mentally but in the physical part. Playing basketball today for the first time in like 3 months really took a toll on my body. I feel mega fucked up my arms and legs are aching to the max i just feel so lazy and like feel like jelly sort of. Hopefully ill heal by the time i go job hunting on Tuesday.
Samantha noticed it that i havent been full happy lately. She explained it as things havent been lifting for me lately. Funnily enough lately ive been feeling kinda like i dunno just like i havent been entirely happy but i havent been sad. I don't know i guess theres somethings i would like to get off my chest, not now but later on.
anyways nothing much else to say.
tillz nextz timez.
laters.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Ghost In The Rain.
You can't really help someone if they don't tell you whats wrong. You just gotta wish them the best and hope things turn out alright for them. But then again whats the point of them telling you something is wrong and not explain the situation. It's really confusing cause your trying to help but you just know anything about it so its just best if you listen and just wish for the best for them.
It really annoys me when im asked a question and i give an honest response and then after be called a liar. It really just bothers/cuts me cause i was giving an honest response/opinion and just trying to help them out.
They say the nice guy always wins in the end. But then again where is the nice guy to be if his help isnt needed.
On another note Supernatural is the best i've managed to catch up to episode 18 and its as good as it can be. Such a mad show.
As for my holidays i havent been doing much but staying at home catching up with supernatural, lazing around the house, sleeping and being nagged by my mum to get a job and do something productive. I should go out and do something soon, i think im going to apply for woolies and see how that goes
anyways thats it for now.
laters.
It really annoys me when im asked a question and i give an honest response and then after be called a liar. It really just bothers/cuts me cause i was giving an honest response/opinion and just trying to help them out.
They say the nice guy always wins in the end. But then again where is the nice guy to be if his help isnt needed.
On another note Supernatural is the best i've managed to catch up to episode 18 and its as good as it can be. Such a mad show.
As for my holidays i havent been doing much but staying at home catching up with supernatural, lazing around the house, sleeping and being nagged by my mum to get a job and do something productive. I should go out and do something soon, i think im going to apply for woolies and see how that goes
anyways thats it for now.
laters.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Interrupted Conversations
Tis quite cold at the moment so ill probably post this at a minimum. Quite an alright week i guess. Finishing exams on Wednesday and also sleeping over at Garmons. Pretty good shizzle. Got to make a bunch of uni friends as well which i find weird, i had all semester to go out and socialize but didnt cause i was rarely at uni but during the exam period after hanging with Tony i made a whole circle of friends which is kind of just letting me ease into uni a bit more. and yeah sleeping over at garmons was pretty alright had good conversations late in the night and having sucka times. I travelled home in the morning on Thursday got home and found out no one was home stayed outside for like 2 hours texting people but no replies FAILZ but then yeah dad came home and just relaxed. home sweet home. it was sweet being home just felt so much more comfortable and yeah didnt do much but sleep for the past few days.
It's been quite fucken cold these past few days i remmeber in the mornings at garmons when i showered in the morning it was fucken cold and its been quite cold these nights its pretty winter now.
as for the title of my blog i guess it speaks for itself.
anyways i think imma sleep now pretty tired.
laters.
It's been quite fucken cold these past few days i remmeber in the mornings at garmons when i showered in the morning it was fucken cold and its been quite cold these nights its pretty winter now.
as for the title of my blog i guess it speaks for itself.
anyways i think imma sleep now pretty tired.
laters.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Random Clutter
Its annoying when you keep knocking on the door and you don't get let in. It's like being left out in the cold, you feel shit inside cause your not let in when others are. It's a hard thing to do to think about whether or not you persevere with knocking on that door in the hopes of being let in or just give up and just move on with your life.
Being left out in the dark is a shit thing. Whether or not one of your friends won't tell you the whole agenda or the fact that your juts not considered as close as you thought you were. For me it feels really shit cause i like to help and it just sucks when your trying to do your best to keep something going on but in the end you just get the door shut on you.
“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.” In some ways i agree with it cause i sometimes put up walls for even those the closest to me. Being guarded is good at times, you find out who really generally does care for you, its also a bad thing in some ways as you might drive people away.
Emotions are sometimes hard to deal with, you don't know whether or not to let them out but if you keep them in you end up just fucking yourself over. So what do you do?
anyways thats all i've got to say
my minds gotten quite blank after writing this
so till next time
laters.
Being left out in the dark is a shit thing. Whether or not one of your friends won't tell you the whole agenda or the fact that your juts not considered as close as you thought you were. For me it feels really shit cause i like to help and it just sucks when your trying to do your best to keep something going on but in the end you just get the door shut on you.
“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.” In some ways i agree with it cause i sometimes put up walls for even those the closest to me. Being guarded is good at times, you find out who really generally does care for you, its also a bad thing in some ways as you might drive people away.
Emotions are sometimes hard to deal with, you don't know whether or not to let them out but if you keep them in you end up just fucking yourself over. So what do you do?
anyways thats all i've got to say
my minds gotten quite blank after writing this
so till next time
laters.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Excuse
Have you ever had that feeling where before you sleep you think and you think of that and when you wake up you think about and you just smile?
I go to sleep every night thinking about and i wake up every morning thinking about. It's a good feeling i admit. I haven't really felt this way in a while. It's been like a year but to feel it once again it feels good.
Anyways i needed to get that out cause it sucks keeping it in, it sucks like keeping things in cause in the end it just builds up and your just gonna implode and hurt the people around you.
I;ve been listening to this jay chou song endlessly since Garmon that fucker told me to listen to it this arvo. It's a pretty sad song and its making me fully miss people randomly. Even though i dont understand the chinese lyrics garmon got me the translated bit and its pretty deep. It nearly made me cry just listneing to it with my mind being blank and just sitting here FAHH
anyways i thought this post was gonna be deep but it wasnt really
and i feel pretty fail.
haircut 2mr.
laters.
I go to sleep every night thinking about and i wake up every morning thinking about. It's a good feeling i admit. I haven't really felt this way in a while. It's been like a year but to feel it once again it feels good.
Anyways i needed to get that out cause it sucks keeping it in, it sucks like keeping things in cause in the end it just builds up and your just gonna implode and hurt the people around you.
I;ve been listening to this jay chou song endlessly since Garmon that fucker told me to listen to it this arvo. It's a pretty sad song and its making me fully miss people randomly. Even though i dont understand the chinese lyrics garmon got me the translated bit and its pretty deep. It nearly made me cry just listneing to it with my mind being blank and just sitting here FAHH
anyways i thought this post was gonna be deep but it wasnt really
and i feel pretty fail.
haircut 2mr.
laters.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Rooftops And Invitations
its like 2pm or something and i just like officially woke up properly but it feels like its mega late arvo and i have done jack shit all day ! FUCARRRRRRRRRRRR. i need to finish my essay today 1200 words on something about inter cultural communications. Anyways decided to hop on and post about my day with that doucheface kid amanda yesterday.
My memories a bit clouded but thats probably cause i woke up pretty stoned and out of it but ill try my best to remember what happened yesterday....
I woke up at like 9:30 cause my alarm went off randomly and i like rolled around in bed for a hour and finally got outta bed, showered ate and got a lift to the station from my dad. Was at the station at around 11:30 or something. Trained it did the usual change at central and yeah got to parra at around like 12:45 or something. didnt wanna disturb amanda cause she was probably still shopping or something so i just walked around parra for like 15 mins then texted her, she told me to meet up at the staion, i waited there for like 10mins....... then got a text to go goldmark and yeah walked all the way up there and me up with amanda and her friend jono. fuck that guys tall. i think hes taller than alias. i wonder if he plays bball, we could probably recruit him. But anyways walked for a bit and it was around like 1:30 when we dropped jono off at the station. We walked up to the cinemas and like we missed what we were supposed to watch " ghosts of a girlfriends past " so we ended up not watching a movie and went to borders where amanda read her beloved tashi books. anyways after a bit cause i wasnt really doing anything we left borders and i think we walked and talked then went to the rooftops and just talked about random stuff and admire the parra view. I folded her a paper crane while we were up there, but she called it ugly and didnt appreciate it much so like fuck her LOL. anyways we saw some bus called " the loop" and amandas like lets catch it so we trekked it down through the myers stairs. fuck that shit was trippy i got mega dizzy at the end cause it was countless stairs going in spirals. Anywyas we got to the bus stop where the thing was and we waited took some random pics and got on and talked about like hsc and shizzle. The bus trip felt pretty long but wasnt really and before i knew it we were back at parra station.
Amanda wanted to go to max brenner to get some chocolate thing so headed there. She got it and i was pretty hungry so we went to maccas. Ordered something and sat and ate. Amanda let me have some of that chocolate thing she had (forgot what it was called) it was pretty nice but so rich in chocolate i dunno how she tanked taht shit but yeah
anyways i dont know how but we had a mad convo about random shizzle like talking about like celebrities, taylor swift? random songs, interests, i dont know like what we want in a guy or girl. It was a pretty awesome convo had a few mad laughs and a few mad random bits of awesomeness but yeah. We spent a while in maccas and it was around 5 so headed down to the station and waited with amanda till her bus came. Took some more random pics which ill upload then her bus came and said goodbye and yeah, caught my train to the city and yeah =]
Awesome day i must admit, but theres more cause i went to city hung out with garmon leith and bill. Played some zombies, fuck that shit is trippy then headed off home.
Good times hanging and yeah.
ANYWAYS I HAFTA START MY ASSIGNMENT FUCK!!!!!!!!!
laters.
ps. i fully need a haircut. fah..
My memories a bit clouded but thats probably cause i woke up pretty stoned and out of it but ill try my best to remember what happened yesterday....
I woke up at like 9:30 cause my alarm went off randomly and i like rolled around in bed for a hour and finally got outta bed, showered ate and got a lift to the station from my dad. Was at the station at around 11:30 or something. Trained it did the usual change at central and yeah got to parra at around like 12:45 or something. didnt wanna disturb amanda cause she was probably still shopping or something so i just walked around parra for like 15 mins then texted her, she told me to meet up at the staion, i waited there for like 10mins....... then got a text to go goldmark and yeah walked all the way up there and me up with amanda and her friend jono. fuck that guys tall. i think hes taller than alias. i wonder if he plays bball, we could probably recruit him. But anyways walked for a bit and it was around like 1:30 when we dropped jono off at the station. We walked up to the cinemas and like we missed what we were supposed to watch " ghosts of a girlfriends past " so we ended up not watching a movie and went to borders where amanda read her beloved tashi books. anyways after a bit cause i wasnt really doing anything we left borders and i think we walked and talked then went to the rooftops and just talked about random stuff and admire the parra view. I folded her a paper crane while we were up there, but she called it ugly and didnt appreciate it much so like fuck her LOL. anyways we saw some bus called " the loop" and amandas like lets catch it so we trekked it down through the myers stairs. fuck that shit was trippy i got mega dizzy at the end cause it was countless stairs going in spirals. Anywyas we got to the bus stop where the thing was and we waited took some random pics and got on and talked about like hsc and shizzle. The bus trip felt pretty long but wasnt really and before i knew it we were back at parra station.
Amanda wanted to go to max brenner to get some chocolate thing so headed there. She got it and i was pretty hungry so we went to maccas. Ordered something and sat and ate. Amanda let me have some of that chocolate thing she had (forgot what it was called) it was pretty nice but so rich in chocolate i dunno how she tanked taht shit but yeah
anyways i dont know how but we had a mad convo about random shizzle like talking about like celebrities, taylor swift? random songs, interests, i dont know like what we want in a guy or girl. It was a pretty awesome convo had a few mad laughs and a few mad random bits of awesomeness but yeah. We spent a while in maccas and it was around 5 so headed down to the station and waited with amanda till her bus came. Took some more random pics which ill upload then her bus came and said goodbye and yeah, caught my train to the city and yeah =]
Awesome day i must admit, but theres more cause i went to city hung out with garmon leith and bill. Played some zombies, fuck that shit is trippy then headed off home.
Good times hanging and yeah.
ANYWAYS I HAFTA START MY ASSIGNMENT FUCK!!!!!!!!!
laters.
ps. i fully need a haircut. fah..
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
This Appointment
Disappointment comes in all shapes and sizes, whether it be the lack of a conversation, the realisation that your not doing as well you thought you were at uni or just the fact that things didnt go your way or finding out something youd rather not find and just making yourself question that person. Disappointment is a really shit feeling, its like your frustrated at the fact that you werent given a chance or that people misinterpret the things you say. I've been talking to richard for the past 2 hours or so since we didnt go state, just talked about random stuff and i started to tell him how i felt like the disappointment and frustration. He basically told me "why bother?" Its almost like he knows how im feeling. After talking to him about everything he gave me pretty good feedback. Im glad to have him as a best friend but yeah it suprised me though cause i never really talked to him about this stuff but the way he opened up to me really made me appreiciate him and yeah.
I don't know if im feeling disappointed at the moment, i just feel like i don't know anything or know whats going on. Its like a semi-weird feeling where you just drift out of reality and think of what could be and what it is at the moment. It's really kind of confusing.
I've been listening to Yellowcard for the past hours. Pretty classic stuff maybe its gotten me in this frame of mind. who knows.
Anyways this is like my 2nd post in the span of a few hours, which means im mega procrastinating and i should get off. I'm not sure if it made sense. I hope it did.
Disappointed francis signing off.
laters.
ps. i need a haircut? to shave it all off or not?
pss. what a mad pun title
I don't know if im feeling disappointed at the moment, i just feel like i don't know anything or know whats going on. Its like a semi-weird feeling where you just drift out of reality and think of what could be and what it is at the moment. It's really kind of confusing.
I've been listening to Yellowcard for the past hours. Pretty classic stuff maybe its gotten me in this frame of mind. who knows.
Anyways this is like my 2nd post in the span of a few hours, which means im mega procrastinating and i should get off. I'm not sure if it made sense. I hope it did.
Disappointed francis signing off.
laters.
ps. i need a haircut? to shave it all off or not?
pss. what a mad pun title
Heard em sayyyyyy ! !@
Listening to a gold old song by kanye west and adam levine from maroon 5. Heard em say seems like sucha peaceful song and it seems like such a perfect song for a quiet day like this. I'm home alone at the moment and im finding it quite peaceful, getting some study done in between the delayed msn replies and the random urges to just go on facebook and tweet on twitter im finding it very calming to be home alone listening to this song and just vibing on its mad peaceful beats. I kind of wonder what the song heard em say means, for one im the type of person who kinda takes notice to lyrics more than the beat cause i sometimes can relate to lyrics of certain songs. All in all if the song sounds good to my ears then ill love it to the max.
Anyways i dont really know why im posting, i think im just generally procrastinating, i woke up quite early today like at 10, i was supposed to go state with richard and i wake up called him at like 10 and he didnt pick up so i was like fk this, i was extremely tired i ended up sleeping at like 4 or something watching Oceans 12 in my room, quite a good movie i must admit its like the 4th time of watched it. Its got like a mad twist but yeah. Anyways yeah woke up at 10, called richard but he didnt pick up so i just curled up in bed again, i lied there for liek 15mins thinking about what to do today but then i suddenly just went back to sleep, woke up at like 11 something and got on the comp and did what i wantd to do for like a week, which was download all these lecture slides, it took like 20 mins and it was arnd 11:45 and i went back to bed jsut to lie there and feel warm with my electric blanket. I started to remnisce of all the state times i've had, just remembering the random times with richard, how this shit chick kept walking up the stairs up and down, like if youve ever been to state those stairs that lead to the bottom they make like a big noise if you wear some kinda heels but yeah she kept walking up and down, and our friends that were there were mega complaining so me and richard ( mostly richard cause i egged him on) we sat like a table next to that girl and richard just stole her pencil case, and shes like " um excuse me" and richard sat there quietly smiling with me and then shes like " what are you doing" then me and richrd explained it was annoying that she kept walking up and down the stairs, then outta nowhere she chucked the biggest spaz and me and richard got owned. After like that we went back and jsut did our work but it was the biggest wtf moment at state but still pretty gold.
Also me and richard's random energy drink adventures, cause i used to go state pretty early but with minimal sleep, me and him would usually just go out and get like V or Red Bull, pretty fails though since state library is in the middle of nowhere, but yeah we spent like 2 hours at most just finding an energy drink andcoming back doing minimal work. Even though i didnt really do as much work as i wanted to do at state i enjoyed those times, theres too many memories to explain, good and bad ones, maybe if you ask ill explain them to you one day but yeah. State libary times were the goldest days out of hsc period.
That was a pretty long remiscing phase but yeah. I guess the songs im listening to are making me reminisce.
FAH ocean avenue sucha tank song. its so classic.
Anyways my minds pretty blank now so i think its best that i get back to studying and revising.
laters
Anyways i dont really know why im posting, i think im just generally procrastinating, i woke up quite early today like at 10, i was supposed to go state with richard and i wake up called him at like 10 and he didnt pick up so i was like fk this, i was extremely tired i ended up sleeping at like 4 or something watching Oceans 12 in my room, quite a good movie i must admit its like the 4th time of watched it. Its got like a mad twist but yeah. Anyways yeah woke up at 10, called richard but he didnt pick up so i just curled up in bed again, i lied there for liek 15mins thinking about what to do today but then i suddenly just went back to sleep, woke up at like 11 something and got on the comp and did what i wantd to do for like a week, which was download all these lecture slides, it took like 20 mins and it was arnd 11:45 and i went back to bed jsut to lie there and feel warm with my electric blanket. I started to remnisce of all the state times i've had, just remembering the random times with richard, how this shit chick kept walking up the stairs up and down, like if youve ever been to state those stairs that lead to the bottom they make like a big noise if you wear some kinda heels but yeah she kept walking up and down, and our friends that were there were mega complaining so me and richard ( mostly richard cause i egged him on) we sat like a table next to that girl and richard just stole her pencil case, and shes like " um excuse me" and richard sat there quietly smiling with me and then shes like " what are you doing" then me and richrd explained it was annoying that she kept walking up and down the stairs, then outta nowhere she chucked the biggest spaz and me and richard got owned. After like that we went back and jsut did our work but it was the biggest wtf moment at state but still pretty gold.
Also me and richard's random energy drink adventures, cause i used to go state pretty early but with minimal sleep, me and him would usually just go out and get like V or Red Bull, pretty fails though since state library is in the middle of nowhere, but yeah we spent like 2 hours at most just finding an energy drink andcoming back doing minimal work. Even though i didnt really do as much work as i wanted to do at state i enjoyed those times, theres too many memories to explain, good and bad ones, maybe if you ask ill explain them to you one day but yeah. State libary times were the goldest days out of hsc period.
That was a pretty long remiscing phase but yeah. I guess the songs im listening to are making me reminisce.
FAH ocean avenue sucha tank song. its so classic.
Anyways my minds pretty blank now so i think its best that i get back to studying and revising.
laters
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