sorry i have been neglecting you for the past week. i havent really found time to blog about the happenings in my life. heaps of stuff has happened. christmas with garmon, getting acquainted again with my old family friends, random boxing day shopping fail outing and alot of thoughts on my head which are really clouding my mind.
i will promise to blog tomorrow about everything so chill for now.
from francis.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Bonds Hotpot
sorry guys and girls. i havent gotten around to blogging much coz ive been out and about and the times i havent been out and about ive been sleeping and i keep forgetting to blog. but yes i am free now at 2:19 am in the morning on December 16th 2008 a day before i get my external hsc marks but yes. this blog is like a week and a bit delayed. so ill recap what happened.
bonds hotpot happened like two saturdays ago. pretty good time, hanging with everyone. i remember waking up at like 12 the day and just looking at the clock waiting for it to be time to get ready. i was anticipating this hotpot to be a fully mad party and it didnt disappoint. i got ready at arnd 2:30 then trained it and met up with alias on a train from sydneham to hursti. then yeah waited outside the net cafe. i really wanted to piss so i decide to take a leak in the alleway. this might sound weird, but it was one of the best leaks ive had. its prob coz i held it in since wolli but yeah.. good times. i think alias was watching though. fken homo.
anyways we waited for a bit but wendie called and we asked her for a lift. she came and picked us up. (sorry frank, wendie denied for us to wait for you). anyways we got to bonds at around 4, but he wasnt there he was still buying groceries for the hotpot. but yeah anyways when bond came the campsies came as well and we helped put stuff in the house.
*fast forward a couple of hours*
so yeah everyone basically came at arnd that time, during the 3hours before hotpot we just did random stuff arnd his house. AND BTW BONDS HOUSE IS LIKE DA BOMB. so big. THANKS BOND =] but yeah just shot arnd and talked and stuff. then the hotpot eventually started off. it was pretty good stuff. i remember the first time we had hotpot it was also nice. but sigh how things of changed. i rememebr the first time i was fully txting bianca the whole night. and i had a curfew and hadto go home. this time arnd things were just completely different. i think i hardly use my mobile anymore. or txt anymore. i srsly cbf. too lazy. but yeah anyways after hotpot we just went arnd doing our own thing. i sat arnd played cards for a bit with shirlie bond alias kat and stuff. then after a while we dispersed and we went into bonds comp room. was watching bruce, bond shirlie just going thru facebook rating guys. pretty funny. anyways after a while people started leaving and we eventually got to a smaller group. oh and magrat arrived at like 11:30pm. anywhos. i spent most of my time in bonds comp room. eventually shirley. that dirty minded person made us watch 2 guys 1 horse and all this bizzare shit. srsly it was fucked up so i didnt watch. i dnt know how bond bruce and stuff tanked it. but srsly.
anyways after that a poker game started playing. pretty funny ting and ware had an alias cam and were watching alias's every move. hes sucha angry kid. but hes cool. but yeah i came like 4th or something or 3rd last. connie eventually won. i cant believe she beat mocker. but yeah. fun times. after that connie andjohnson left. and then yeah. went back to bonds comp room and did random stuff. i started to feel sleepy. so me magrat and steve went downstairs into this room which reminded me of that simpsons ep with homer and the bomb shelter. but anyways i chilled with magrat and steve for quite a while had a few DNM's and yeah it was like 5am. AND WHERE THE SUCK HAVE YOU BEEN MARGARET?. anyways steve left at arnd that time. and i slept with magrat ( no guys not in the way your thinking). we woke up at arnd 9 and talked abit. it was a good chillout with her. anyways we went back upstairs to find everyone like half dead and half playing dota. we eventually left bonds at arnd 11 said bye and stuff. and yeah overall it was good. although the fobs are gone now =( pretty sad but yes we shall have something massive when you guys all come back =D
and yeah thanks again bond for that =]
hmms anyways i feel kinda drowsy but ill make a promise to blog more often now. ill prob put up a to do list as well. but yes i shall try to blog more often
anyways next post will prob just be abt the bbq on sunday and just catchings up on the happenings in my life.
till nex time
laters.
bonds hotpot happened like two saturdays ago. pretty good time, hanging with everyone. i remember waking up at like 12 the day and just looking at the clock waiting for it to be time to get ready. i was anticipating this hotpot to be a fully mad party and it didnt disappoint. i got ready at arnd 2:30 then trained it and met up with alias on a train from sydneham to hursti. then yeah waited outside the net cafe. i really wanted to piss so i decide to take a leak in the alleway. this might sound weird, but it was one of the best leaks ive had. its prob coz i held it in since wolli but yeah.. good times. i think alias was watching though. fken homo.
anyways we waited for a bit but wendie called and we asked her for a lift. she came and picked us up. (sorry frank, wendie denied for us to wait for you). anyways we got to bonds at around 4, but he wasnt there he was still buying groceries for the hotpot. but yeah anyways when bond came the campsies came as well and we helped put stuff in the house.
*fast forward a couple of hours*
so yeah everyone basically came at arnd that time, during the 3hours before hotpot we just did random stuff arnd his house. AND BTW BONDS HOUSE IS LIKE DA BOMB. so big. THANKS BOND =] but yeah just shot arnd and talked and stuff. then the hotpot eventually started off. it was pretty good stuff. i remember the first time we had hotpot it was also nice. but sigh how things of changed. i rememebr the first time i was fully txting bianca the whole night. and i had a curfew and hadto go home. this time arnd things were just completely different. i think i hardly use my mobile anymore. or txt anymore. i srsly cbf. too lazy. but yeah anyways after hotpot we just went arnd doing our own thing. i sat arnd played cards for a bit with shirlie bond alias kat and stuff. then after a while we dispersed and we went into bonds comp room. was watching bruce, bond shirlie just going thru facebook rating guys. pretty funny. anyways after a while people started leaving and we eventually got to a smaller group. oh and magrat arrived at like 11:30pm. anywhos. i spent most of my time in bonds comp room. eventually shirley. that dirty minded person made us watch 2 guys 1 horse and all this bizzare shit. srsly it was fucked up so i didnt watch. i dnt know how bond bruce and stuff tanked it. but srsly.
anyways after that a poker game started playing. pretty funny ting and ware had an alias cam and were watching alias's every move. hes sucha angry kid. but hes cool. but yeah i came like 4th or something or 3rd last. connie eventually won. i cant believe she beat mocker. but yeah. fun times. after that connie andjohnson left. and then yeah. went back to bonds comp room and did random stuff. i started to feel sleepy. so me magrat and steve went downstairs into this room which reminded me of that simpsons ep with homer and the bomb shelter. but anyways i chilled with magrat and steve for quite a while had a few DNM's and yeah it was like 5am. AND WHERE THE SUCK HAVE YOU BEEN MARGARET?. anyways steve left at arnd that time. and i slept with magrat ( no guys not in the way your thinking). we woke up at arnd 9 and talked abit. it was a good chillout with her. anyways we went back upstairs to find everyone like half dead and half playing dota. we eventually left bonds at arnd 11 said bye and stuff. and yeah overall it was good. although the fobs are gone now =( pretty sad but yes we shall have something massive when you guys all come back =D
and yeah thanks again bond for that =]
hmms anyways i feel kinda drowsy but ill make a promise to blog more often now. ill prob put up a to do list as well. but yes i shall try to blog more often
anyways next post will prob just be abt the bbq on sunday and just catchings up on the happenings in my life.
till nex time
laters.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
Futility
i dont even know if i should be blogging about this but i dunno how to let my feelings out. its been weird. its only been a day since it happened but yeah. i dont even know how to feel. at 10:30 last night my grandma passed away..
sigh i dont really know how to go about it. ive been thinking constantly since it happened. i havent really said a word around the house. just been moping around and such. fuck i dont know how to feel. i feel empty and useless. its like i dont even know what to feel. its fucken shit. i dont know if im angry, frustrated, sad or anything, its just me feeling empty inside.
its like i dont even know if im myself anymore or not. i havent gotten around to talking it to people. like i dont even know what to say or how to open up. so i guess blogging helps kinda. but i dunno.
i think back to last night and i just picture my dad crying. ive never seen him so down and cut up and feeling shitty. it just hurts inside for me. to feel the pain he feels atm is unbearable. i dont really know what i can do for him now besdies be there for him and yeah.
sigh. anyways im off. dont really want to talk about it much more....
laters.
sigh i dont really know how to go about it. ive been thinking constantly since it happened. i havent really said a word around the house. just been moping around and such. fuck i dont know how to feel. i feel empty and useless. its like i dont even know what to feel. its fucken shit. i dont know if im angry, frustrated, sad or anything, its just me feeling empty inside.
its like i dont even know if im myself anymore or not. i havent gotten around to talking it to people. like i dont even know what to say or how to open up. so i guess blogging helps kinda. but i dunno.
i think back to last night and i just picture my dad crying. ive never seen him so down and cut up and feeling shitty. it just hurts inside for me. to feel the pain he feels atm is unbearable. i dont really know what i can do for him now besdies be there for him and yeah.
sigh. anyways im off. dont really want to talk about it much more....
laters.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Lazy's Party + Day Out With Christine
lazy's party was the ultimate chillout party. pretty fun party and i cant believe that me philip alias stayed at that party for like 17 hours or so. but yeah basically met up with alias roger and margaret at 1pm at hurstville to buy a cake. me and margaret were arguing about whether or not to get an ice cream cake or mud cake coz ice cream cake would melt by the time we got there. i was basically arguing coz its margaret but yeah eventually her shangness won and we bought a mudcake from michel's patiserre. then right after steve called margaret and we eventually got a ride from steve to lazy's.
when we got to lazy's house we were the first ones there so yeah we just chilled and stuff till everyone came. me and roger versed alias and steve in pool. we won coz my random bs shots the ball somehow went in and yeah all flukes =] then after a while people started coming and yeah. me and alias were just fully dissing roger abt poker. he got angry after a while and yeah we played for $2 i beat alias and alias beat roger. pretty funny. after everyone came we just chilled and stuff.
at arnd 5-6 lazy and bond drove to get pizza then when they came out everyone just started pigging out . me ware philip margaret and richard were just eating outside and randomly talking about stuff. me richard margaret were basically together most of the time. (pretty random i might add) . we just talked and stuff about helicopter and alot of other random things. pretty good convos.
after eating pizza we went outside and chilled out in lazys room. though it was crowded by like other people we decided to go to lazy's study and chill out there. we just closed the lights and did random stuff. liek stacks on margaret and watch richards fake dick shadow. pretty funny. eventually people found us out and yeah we were called the " helicopter krew" by ware. pretty random but yeah then steve came. we chilled with him and went outside to play footy. fully random convo about poo. steve was talking about a reverse gangduh or something where you sit reverse on a toilet and make your poo skid inside the bowl. pretty random but funny. also funny coz margaret was there
and she was just like " *wtf expression* while making random positions*" when we were talking about it.
after passing the footy and talking about poo we shifted inside the house into lazys room. there we just lied down and talked and chilled again. while searching random youtube music clips and listening and singing them. eventually we got found out and roger came in coz he lost poker. the kitten was in the room so yeah roger was like " lets put it in iris's bag and say that it pissed". we eventually did it and yeah told iris. and shes like " omg" and yeah preh funny when we got like some wet tissue and rubbed it on her bag pretending it was piss. then yeah after that prank we just lied down and chilled again. richard lied down and i slept on his dick and margaret lied down and she lied on my stomach. pretty epic. we took like random luvos and yeah.
anyways i looked at my phone and it was like 10:30 something and margaret had to leave coz steve couldnt have more than like 1 passenger after 11 so yeah. oh btw forgot to add right before they left we sung lazy happry birthday with our pro cake with no candles. anyways yeah they left so it was just me, dick, alias and philip bumming.
basically from 11- 7 we just walked arnd sat down and talked. i watched sabiq play mah jong and i think i learnt how to play it. but anyways yeah. we played a game of blackjack with bond being dealer. i broke even as i didnt lose or gain money and yeah. pretty epic. after that we all shifted to lazys room ( the people who were left : me bond ware alias richard bruce and lazy) and we just talked about bball, weights and random stuff. pretty good times. i like these types of parties coz theyre just random chillout sessions without alki so it was good.
anyways it was like 6 or something when all of that chillout happened and we made noodles. i had some nice beef noodles. then we all shifted to the kitchen table and talked about random stuff. the guys asked me about my life story so yeah i told them basically alot of stuff andyeah pretty random that consumed alot of time. then yeah we talked about richard and how we see him with an asian girl later on in the future. and we just talked randomly and played the game "fuck, kill marry" pretty funny and epic.
then after a while we called it a night (or morning or day) and we all walked to the station and trained it home. i got home around like 8ish and yeah just chilled.
i was meeting up with christine later on the day so i didnt really sleep.
at liek 12:30 trained it to city and yeah met up walked to town hall cinemas and watched mirrors. that movie scared the shit out of me. im like a real pussy in horror movies so yeah. i closed my eyes and covered them most of the time. eventually after all of the shit happened it ended and yeah me and christine went home.
i didnt sleep for like 30 hours or so and yeah. pretty good times at lazy's he should have another one like that or bond should have hotpot =]
anyways till next time
laters.
when we got to lazy's house we were the first ones there so yeah we just chilled and stuff till everyone came. me and roger versed alias and steve in pool. we won coz my random bs shots the ball somehow went in and yeah all flukes =] then after a while people started coming and yeah. me and alias were just fully dissing roger abt poker. he got angry after a while and yeah we played for $2 i beat alias and alias beat roger. pretty funny. after everyone came we just chilled and stuff.
at arnd 5-6 lazy and bond drove to get pizza then when they came out everyone just started pigging out . me ware philip margaret and richard were just eating outside and randomly talking about stuff. me richard margaret were basically together most of the time. (pretty random i might add) . we just talked and stuff about helicopter and alot of other random things. pretty good convos.
after eating pizza we went outside and chilled out in lazys room. though it was crowded by like other people we decided to go to lazy's study and chill out there. we just closed the lights and did random stuff. liek stacks on margaret and watch richards fake dick shadow. pretty funny. eventually people found us out and yeah we were called the " helicopter krew" by ware. pretty random but yeah then steve came. we chilled with him and went outside to play footy. fully random convo about poo. steve was talking about a reverse gangduh or something where you sit reverse on a toilet and make your poo skid inside the bowl. pretty random but funny. also funny coz margaret was there
and she was just like " *wtf expression* while making random positions*" when we were talking about it.
after passing the footy and talking about poo we shifted inside the house into lazys room. there we just lied down and talked and chilled again. while searching random youtube music clips and listening and singing them. eventually we got found out and roger came in coz he lost poker. the kitten was in the room so yeah roger was like " lets put it in iris's bag and say that it pissed". we eventually did it and yeah told iris. and shes like " omg" and yeah preh funny when we got like some wet tissue and rubbed it on her bag pretending it was piss. then yeah after that prank we just lied down and chilled again. richard lied down and i slept on his dick and margaret lied down and she lied on my stomach. pretty epic. we took like random luvos and yeah.
anyways i looked at my phone and it was like 10:30 something and margaret had to leave coz steve couldnt have more than like 1 passenger after 11 so yeah. oh btw forgot to add right before they left we sung lazy happry birthday with our pro cake with no candles. anyways yeah they left so it was just me, dick, alias and philip bumming.
basically from 11- 7 we just walked arnd sat down and talked. i watched sabiq play mah jong and i think i learnt how to play it. but anyways yeah. we played a game of blackjack with bond being dealer. i broke even as i didnt lose or gain money and yeah. pretty epic. after that we all shifted to lazys room ( the people who were left : me bond ware alias richard bruce and lazy) and we just talked about bball, weights and random stuff. pretty good times. i like these types of parties coz theyre just random chillout sessions without alki so it was good.
anyways it was like 6 or something when all of that chillout happened and we made noodles. i had some nice beef noodles. then we all shifted to the kitchen table and talked about random stuff. the guys asked me about my life story so yeah i told them basically alot of stuff andyeah pretty random that consumed alot of time. then yeah we talked about richard and how we see him with an asian girl later on in the future. and we just talked randomly and played the game "fuck, kill marry" pretty funny and epic.
then after a while we called it a night (or morning or day) and we all walked to the station and trained it home. i got home around like 8ish and yeah just chilled.
i was meeting up with christine later on the day so i didnt really sleep.
at liek 12:30 trained it to city and yeah met up walked to town hall cinemas and watched mirrors. that movie scared the shit out of me. im like a real pussy in horror movies so yeah. i closed my eyes and covered them most of the time. eventually after all of the shit happened it ended and yeah me and christine went home.
i didnt sleep for like 30 hours or so and yeah. pretty good times at lazy's he should have another one like that or bond should have hotpot =]
anyways till next time
laters.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Repercussions
this is part 2 of my two blog post
anyways i think im jst gonna vent in this blog. mmm. ive been feeling i dunno like lonely lately. just like seems like everyon around me is being independent and shit and i dunno for me im bored shitless at home doing nothing so i end up thinking. sigh ive been thinking about all these scenarios about what will happen when i get my hsc results back. im kinda scared but at the same time cbf about it ? i dont know how it works but ive been pretty worked up over it. =[
but yeah this feeling of lonliness is kinda getting to me. i remember bond said something the other day about being lonely hes like " look at them, sigh i feel so lonely" and it got me thinking. i havent liked anyone since bianca or even gotten close to liking anyone.(or maybe i just think that, i dunno confusing times...) i think i shut people out coz im afraid to trust them and stuff. but im not really sure.(am i like that?). im a really open person so generally i tell people most of my troubles but sigh this feeling of lonliness is just pwning me=[
im so confused about you...
last night at like 3am i posted a status thing on facebook "=[" i was thinking heaps last night about it.
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person..
emptiness and isolation.. yeah im feeling those =[. kinda sucks really. i really needta get out there and hang out with someone. at times like these i wish garmon were here. me and him would just chill out somewhere and id get over it. but hes in japan so yeah it sucks =/
hopefully things get brighter over the next few days.
im seeing crystal 2mr to take the bus ride home, which i rkn is gonna be cool . im excited. like seriously. haha then friday im going shopping with lazy for some supplies. then saturday lazys party. then sunday i think outing with christine.
hopefully these next few days can help keep my mind in tact
anyways till next time.
laters.
ps. fuck im so confused about you
i think i like you. but i dunno its confusing coz you give off weird signs. hopefully on the weekend i can figure it out....
anyways i think im jst gonna vent in this blog. mmm. ive been feeling i dunno like lonely lately. just like seems like everyon around me is being independent and shit and i dunno for me im bored shitless at home doing nothing so i end up thinking. sigh ive been thinking about all these scenarios about what will happen when i get my hsc results back. im kinda scared but at the same time cbf about it ? i dont know how it works but ive been pretty worked up over it. =[
but yeah this feeling of lonliness is kinda getting to me. i remember bond said something the other day about being lonely hes like " look at them, sigh i feel so lonely" and it got me thinking. i havent liked anyone since bianca or even gotten close to liking anyone.(or maybe i just think that, i dunno confusing times...) i think i shut people out coz im afraid to trust them and stuff. but im not really sure.(am i like that?). im a really open person so generally i tell people most of my troubles but sigh this feeling of lonliness is just pwning me=[
im so confused about you...
last night at like 3am i posted a status thing on facebook "=[" i was thinking heaps last night about it.
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person..
emptiness and isolation.. yeah im feeling those =[. kinda sucks really. i really needta get out there and hang out with someone. at times like these i wish garmon were here. me and him would just chill out somewhere and id get over it. but hes in japan so yeah it sucks =/
hopefully things get brighter over the next few days.
im seeing crystal 2mr to take the bus ride home, which i rkn is gonna be cool . im excited. like seriously. haha then friday im going shopping with lazy for some supplies. then saturday lazys party. then sunday i think outing with christine.
hopefully these next few days can help keep my mind in tact
anyways till next time.
laters.
ps. fuck im so confused about you
i think i like you. but i dunno its confusing coz you give off weird signs. hopefully on the weekend i can figure it out....
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Jays Suprise Birthday + Random Night Out
alrights time to blog this shizzle up!
lets reeeeewwwwinnnnnnddddd
back a couple of days to monday.
monday was JAYS SUPRISE 18TH PARTY =D
it was a pretty fun but tiring day. suprisingly i got on that day with only like 5hours of sleep. i slept at 5 woke up at like 11. then im like shit had to meet john at circular quay at like 12 to deliver the cake to the rocks before jay came. so yeah rushed and ran out of the house. caught the train and met up with john cho, alias philip and hyun. then we went to the rocks. suprisingly i was the only guy who knew where it was =S. anyways lets fast forward to like 1. all of us ( me john philip hyun alias bond wendie roger kenny ware chris samantha ) all waited at the restaurant and waited for jay to come. he came and we suprised hahah it was pretty funny coz jay had this wtf look on his face. but yeah then we ordered. and i halfed with philip so i got a fishermans catch and like some ribs. the ribs were pretty nice so i advise you get them if you ever go to the rocks to eat ^^.
anyways after taking many photos and such we all walked to darling harbour FROM CIRCULAR QUAY. it ws a pretty long walk but all in all was good fun ( you know some people think circular quay and darling harbour are the same place.) anyways me roger alias and philip kinda got lost from the pack but this was due to some arguement roger was making with philip. the arguement was basically like roger thinks that wanting more money is too greedy and thatd be fine if he had $20m the rest of his life. but me philip and alias thinks that too little and its okay to want more. coz you work for your moneys worth. i completely forget some bits. but yeah roger got owned. and stuff but it ws a pretty good arguement and before we knew it we were at darling harbour.
we met up with them at that bowling place upstairs and yeah. we went bowling =D well i didnt play coz i was mega tired and felt like sleeping. but i kinda wish i did play coz it was pretty funny. like roger was bowling and he didnt hit a pin till like his 3rd go. pretty funny. haha and yeah basically after all of it. jay went home so me ware bruce alias samantha philip chris and roger were left. we decided to go to istar to play some cod4. then yeah after that ware and chris left. and me philip alias bond bruce and samantha walked arnd for abit. alias felt tired so me him philip went home while bruce sam and bond the 3rd wheel stayed.
it was a pretty good train trip home with alias and philip ( i was going back to campsie coz needed to pick some movies up with philip) but yeah we were just talking about random stuff. we got off at campsie and philip did some stuff with acn. then we hoppded on a train to birrong where we picked up the movies. basically this is part 2 of my blog. the random night out. after going birrong. i got a call from richard saying to come to the nsg after party. at this time it was like 12:30 and we just caught the last train from birrong. though it didnt go city so we had to get off at bankstown and take a a night ride bus. when we got on the bus ushan called us saying that there was no more room. so im like wtf. so i ended up sleeping over at philips. haha prettyrandom but yeah watched taken at his house then woke up at 6am then caught a bus and train home.
overall it was a pretty long and tiring but fun day. so yeah haha
( i missed out parts of the story coz i cbb recounting everything xd)
anyways ill upload photos from jays party on here and also on facebo
laters.
lets reeeeewwwwinnnnnnddddd
back a couple of days to monday.
monday was JAYS SUPRISE 18TH PARTY =D
it was a pretty fun but tiring day. suprisingly i got on that day with only like 5hours of sleep. i slept at 5 woke up at like 11. then im like shit had to meet john at circular quay at like 12 to deliver the cake to the rocks before jay came. so yeah rushed and ran out of the house. caught the train and met up with john cho, alias philip and hyun. then we went to the rocks. suprisingly i was the only guy who knew where it was =S. anyways lets fast forward to like 1. all of us ( me john philip hyun alias bond wendie roger kenny ware chris samantha ) all waited at the restaurant and waited for jay to come. he came and we suprised hahah it was pretty funny coz jay had this wtf look on his face. but yeah then we ordered. and i halfed with philip so i got a fishermans catch and like some ribs. the ribs were pretty nice so i advise you get them if you ever go to the rocks to eat ^^.
anyways after taking many photos and such we all walked to darling harbour FROM CIRCULAR QUAY. it ws a pretty long walk but all in all was good fun ( you know some people think circular quay and darling harbour are the same place.) anyways me roger alias and philip kinda got lost from the pack but this was due to some arguement roger was making with philip. the arguement was basically like roger thinks that wanting more money is too greedy and thatd be fine if he had $20m the rest of his life. but me philip and alias thinks that too little and its okay to want more. coz you work for your moneys worth. i completely forget some bits. but yeah roger got owned. and stuff but it ws a pretty good arguement and before we knew it we were at darling harbour.
we met up with them at that bowling place upstairs and yeah. we went bowling =D well i didnt play coz i was mega tired and felt like sleeping. but i kinda wish i did play coz it was pretty funny. like roger was bowling and he didnt hit a pin till like his 3rd go. pretty funny. haha and yeah basically after all of it. jay went home so me ware bruce alias samantha philip chris and roger were left. we decided to go to istar to play some cod4. then yeah after that ware and chris left. and me philip alias bond bruce and samantha walked arnd for abit. alias felt tired so me him philip went home while bruce sam and bond the 3rd wheel stayed.
it was a pretty good train trip home with alias and philip ( i was going back to campsie coz needed to pick some movies up with philip) but yeah we were just talking about random stuff. we got off at campsie and philip did some stuff with acn. then we hoppded on a train to birrong where we picked up the movies. basically this is part 2 of my blog. the random night out. after going birrong. i got a call from richard saying to come to the nsg after party. at this time it was like 12:30 and we just caught the last train from birrong. though it didnt go city so we had to get off at bankstown and take a a night ride bus. when we got on the bus ushan called us saying that there was no more room. so im like wtf. so i ended up sleeping over at philips. haha prettyrandom but yeah watched taken at his house then woke up at 6am then caught a bus and train home.
overall it was a pretty long and tiring but fun day. so yeah haha
( i missed out parts of the story coz i cbb recounting everything xd)
anyways ill upload photos from jays party on here and also on facebo
laters.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Title And Registration
by popular demand ( crystals influence ) ive decided to change my blog title.
but im not really sure what i should put it as
so ill let you guys decide here are my choices
"francis smells"
or
"A Mark A Mission A Brand A Scar"
or
"Commit To This Memory"
or
"Catching Tales"
or
"All The Stars And Boulevards"
or
"Fly Beyond The Sky"
or
"crystal is the best"
i personally dont like the last one. but yeah anwyays LOL =p
plz comment and help decide
ill reallly appreciate it =D
laters.
ps.
check out formal blog =D
ps. the little font in my title is gonna be changed into a pickup line for amusement purposes haha
but im not really sure what i should put it as
so ill let you guys decide here are my choices
"francis smells"
or
"A Mark A Mission A Brand A Scar"
or
"Commit To This Memory"
or
"Catching Tales"
or
"All The Stars And Boulevards"
or
"Fly Beyond The Sky"
or
"crystal is the best"
i personally dont like the last one. but yeah anwyays LOL =p
plz comment and help decide
ill reallly appreciate it =D
laters.
ps.
check out formal blog =D
ps. the little font in my title is gonna be changed into a pickup line for amusement purposes haha
Friday, November 21, 2008
Formal
alright since i have time on my hands.. well alot of time now and since im bored ill blog about formal night.
basically as all formals were it was just one where you sat down and ate. got up took photos and danced. out of those 3 i did two coz i didnt dance i just sat arnd and walked around being random and making people laugh. its what i do. haha anyways at the formal i met a girl crystal. haha she was brosons date but yeah met her through lazy. i spent most of my formal night just hanging and chatting with her. it was nice having her as company coz she was fun and cool to talk to haha so yeah overall formal was good coz of her.
then yeah after all that formal stuff took a cab with sean, richard and bill to rogers after party. it was a preh cool taxi the car was just playing loud music again ahah and yeah fully funny curry driver. then got to rogers shot some hoops waited for people to come then the fun began. i dont really remember what happened. alot of blanks in my memory. i can rememebr walking arnd with a sword. and threatning people then trying some of froggys argyle for fun (nice strawberry flavour) then yeah after that i remembe walking with alias steve and margaret to bakery to get bread. i remember vomitting rofl. thats abt it. after that did random stuff. then slept on the couch for like 15mins. then got a lift from najeeb to riverwood.
eventually got home at like 9ish showered and slept till 3 or something.
alot of funny things happened that night. pretty funny well not really but johnny got vomitted on by ware, pretty funny in the morning johnny wakes up comes down in just boxers and is like " guys seriously where are my clothes?" pretty funny hha. theres pics and stuff so i might post if up if im bothered. apparently ushan tried to get him to shower naked or something. that was pretty fked up but yeah. hahahha then yeah bond admitted his indian fever. he thought najeebs date kriti was pretty hot.
sigh drunk guys are pretty funny. apaprently im a funny and random and happy drunk. neons a gay drunk. froggys an angry drunk, bonds ap layful drunk and alias is a funny drunk.
overall afterparty was the best.
so thanks roger for everything. sorry if we messed up your house abit too much. haha
so yeah that was my formal night.
so that was pretty much formal night. ill update soon on my past few days.
yeah bl johnny... =/
anyways stay tuned. blog later
laters.
ps if you want to see formal pics of my sexyness LOL jokes go to my facebook. :)
basically as all formals were it was just one where you sat down and ate. got up took photos and danced. out of those 3 i did two coz i didnt dance i just sat arnd and walked around being random and making people laugh. its what i do. haha anyways at the formal i met a girl crystal. haha she was brosons date but yeah met her through lazy. i spent most of my formal night just hanging and chatting with her. it was nice having her as company coz she was fun and cool to talk to haha so yeah overall formal was good coz of her.
then yeah after all that formal stuff took a cab with sean, richard and bill to rogers after party. it was a preh cool taxi the car was just playing loud music again ahah and yeah fully funny curry driver. then got to rogers shot some hoops waited for people to come then the fun began. i dont really remember what happened. alot of blanks in my memory. i can rememebr walking arnd with a sword. and threatning people then trying some of froggys argyle for fun (nice strawberry flavour) then yeah after that i remembe walking with alias steve and margaret to bakery to get bread. i remember vomitting rofl. thats abt it. after that did random stuff. then slept on the couch for like 15mins. then got a lift from najeeb to riverwood.
eventually got home at like 9ish showered and slept till 3 or something.
alot of funny things happened that night. pretty funny well not really but johnny got vomitted on by ware, pretty funny in the morning johnny wakes up comes down in just boxers and is like " guys seriously where are my clothes?" pretty funny hha. theres pics and stuff so i might post if up if im bothered. apparently ushan tried to get him to shower naked or something. that was pretty fked up but yeah. hahahha then yeah bond admitted his indian fever. he thought najeebs date kriti was pretty hot.
sigh drunk guys are pretty funny. apaprently im a funny and random and happy drunk. neons a gay drunk. froggys an angry drunk, bonds ap layful drunk and alias is a funny drunk.
overall afterparty was the best.
so thanks roger for everything. sorry if we messed up your house abit too much. haha
so yeah that was my formal night.
so that was pretty much formal night. ill update soon on my past few days.
yeah bl johnny... =/
anyways stay tuned. blog later
laters.
ps if you want to see formal pics of my sexyness LOL jokes go to my facebook. :)
Monday, November 17, 2008
SUIT UP!
yes yes yes.. tomorrow is formal.. 7:30 at the shangri-la .. i dont really know but im not really interested in the formal. im more interested about the afterparty. i think im not really that interested abt the formal coz it was a thing that was hyped up to the max and turned out being all shitty and stuff. sigh i cant wait till the afters. im pretty excited to the max. also i guess coz of the suit im wearing and black shirt. i wanna see how it looks. ill take heaps of of pictures :D
anyways havent been doing much past few days cept for sign out day today and weeekend fully trying to play ff8 BUT OMFG I CANT COZ THE DISC IS SCRACTCHED. SO IF ANYONE HAS FF8 PLZ MSG ME TXT ME OR WHATEVER :D
but yeah XD
anyways im preh tired
so ill blog in a few nights
laters.
anyways havent been doing much past few days cept for sign out day today and weeekend fully trying to play ff8 BUT OMFG I CANT COZ THE DISC IS SCRACTCHED. SO IF ANYONE HAS FF8 PLZ MSG ME TXT ME OR WHATEVER :D
but yeah XD
anyways im preh tired
so ill blog in a few nights
laters.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
U-Turn ( around and go back home coz it was a shit party)
ahh u-turn.... it was THE BEST PARTY EVER...... NOT...
that party sucked so much that it just sucked. LOL (dunno how else to explain) anyways basically met up with everyone at 5:30 at central , most ppl were late so by the time we left central station it was 6. then walked to the bus stops near the hobo park. then after like 15minutes of deliberation we figured out it was the wrong bus stop and we walked to the rail way square bus stop. got there at like 6:30 then bus came at 6:44 or something then yeah bussed it to petersham. it didnt directly go to petersham station so basically we got dropped off at some main road which was "petersham" we asked arnd and got directions and by this time it was like 7 or something. walked like a kilometre then got to petersham station. it started pouring so we went down to the station and took cover. we didnt know where the place was so we looked at the map. figured out whre it was and yeah. but i decided to stay with philip coz we were waiting for jeff. after like 5mins i get a call from richard. preh random like richard always is. told him that we were at petersham and he came and picked us up. he told us it was the shittest party ever coz it was just a yr 7 party. by this time it was like 7:30 or something. then some stuff happend ( cbb explaining.) jeff came and we walked to the place. walked in saw it was shit walked out. it was like 8:30 at this time and it was pouring so basically we took like 2 and a half hours or so to get to some party which we didnt even stay 15mins for. but yeah we decided to train it back to city. on the way talked randomly laughed alot at richard. i rkn if richard wasnt there id be bored shitless like literally. every outing needs a richard. ahh richard. your the goldest guy. anyways got to city and went to eat at kfc. ate at the top level and chatted and sold richard my nba games for $10. after a while we decided to go iSTAR and play COD4... OMG ISTAR IS THE BEST NET CAFE. anyways after a while of gaming and pwning jeff in cod4. we decided to go home.
(i think i got better at cod4..)
anyways overall that day started off shit but ended up not being so bad
lol
laters.
that party sucked so much that it just sucked. LOL (dunno how else to explain) anyways basically met up with everyone at 5:30 at central , most ppl were late so by the time we left central station it was 6. then walked to the bus stops near the hobo park. then after like 15minutes of deliberation we figured out it was the wrong bus stop and we walked to the rail way square bus stop. got there at like 6:30 then bus came at 6:44 or something then yeah bussed it to petersham. it didnt directly go to petersham station so basically we got dropped off at some main road which was "petersham" we asked arnd and got directions and by this time it was like 7 or something. walked like a kilometre then got to petersham station. it started pouring so we went down to the station and took cover. we didnt know where the place was so we looked at the map. figured out whre it was and yeah. but i decided to stay with philip coz we were waiting for jeff. after like 5mins i get a call from richard. preh random like richard always is. told him that we were at petersham and he came and picked us up. he told us it was the shittest party ever coz it was just a yr 7 party. by this time it was like 7:30 or something. then some stuff happend ( cbb explaining.) jeff came and we walked to the place. walked in saw it was shit walked out. it was like 8:30 at this time and it was pouring so basically we took like 2 and a half hours or so to get to some party which we didnt even stay 15mins for. but yeah we decided to train it back to city. on the way talked randomly laughed alot at richard. i rkn if richard wasnt there id be bored shitless like literally. every outing needs a richard. ahh richard. your the goldest guy. anyways got to city and went to eat at kfc. ate at the top level and chatted and sold richard my nba games for $10. after a while we decided to go iSTAR and play COD4... OMG ISTAR IS THE BEST NET CAFE. anyways after a while of gaming and pwning jeff in cod4. we decided to go home.
(i think i got better at cod4..)
anyways overall that day started off shit but ended up not being so bad
lol
laters.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Get Busy Living OR Get Busy Dying
i think post hsc is making my brain all whack. and my sleeping patterns all sucked up. i slept at like 3 or something last night and i woke up at 7am ? LOL i walked out to the kitchen and saw my mum and sister talking. i was abt to say " why the suck arent you at school" but i looked at the clock and ended up going back to sleep and waking up at like 11 checked my downloads then went back to sleep and woke up at 1pm.
by that time i was at the comp catching up with how i met your mother. ahh thank you lazy for giving me this show. it seriously has been one of the best shows ive watched. pretty funny times with ted robin barney lily and marshall. best show.
im kinda bored atm so ill list my top 5 tv shows that im watching.
im gonna start something new in my posts and its called....
wheres the party at: its basically gonna outline what im doing in the next couple of days so yeah =D
basically 2mr me and the guys weer supposed to go to this awesome party. it ended up being not so awesome coz it ended up being a christian event (sorry if i offended anyone) but basically everyone thought it was gonna be hardcore but yeah oh wells we're still going anyways then prob chill at the city after like how us asians do. then on the weekend im undecided.
anyways im off to play some ff8. started it again. gah im so bored. someone organise something !
laters.
by that time i was at the comp catching up with how i met your mother. ahh thank you lazy for giving me this show. it seriously has been one of the best shows ive watched. pretty funny times with ted robin barney lily and marshall. best show.
im kinda bored atm so ill list my top 5 tv shows that im watching.
- How I Met Your Mother
- Entourage
- Supernatural
- One Tree Hill
- Heroes
- Shuffle!
- Code Geass
- Soul Eater
- Getbackers
- Air Gear
- Bleach
- Naruto
im gonna start something new in my posts and its called....
wheres the party at: its basically gonna outline what im doing in the next couple of days so yeah =D
basically 2mr me and the guys weer supposed to go to this awesome party. it ended up being not so awesome coz it ended up being a christian event (sorry if i offended anyone) but basically everyone thought it was gonna be hardcore but yeah oh wells we're still going anyways then prob chill at the city after like how us asians do. then on the weekend im undecided.
anyways im off to play some ff8. started it again. gah im so bored. someone organise something !
laters.
It's Beachin'
get the pun? dehehe anyways if you havent figured it out i went to the beach today. it was pretty good weather and yeah it was pretty nice and relaxing. not that many ppl went but overall it was a pretty good day hanging with the guys and talking and joking around . good times.
anyways just spent the day trying to catch waves and like relax and get a better tan on my back coz its so white. haha OMG FEMO DIDNT COME SO I DNT HAVE FFX-2 argh im so bored =/ hopefully i can get it off femo or sam or james 2mr or something hmms...
im supposed to be uncapped at this very moment now as well but i think optus is stuffed up so yeah preh sad so im watching entourage.
hmms not many big plans for the upcoming day cept prob sleeping in all of today and on friday going to some party called "U-turn" hopefully thatll turn out good.
anyways im out
till next time
laters.
anyways just spent the day trying to catch waves and like relax and get a better tan on my back coz its so white. haha OMG FEMO DIDNT COME SO I DNT HAVE FFX-2 argh im so bored =/ hopefully i can get it off femo or sam or james 2mr or something hmms...
im supposed to be uncapped at this very moment now as well but i think optus is stuffed up so yeah preh sad so im watching entourage.
hmms not many big plans for the upcoming day cept prob sleeping in all of today and on friday going to some party called "U-turn" hopefully thatll turn out good.
anyways im out
till next time
laters.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Resolution 1280 x 1024
i havent been doing much for the past two days just been lazing around home, sleeping when im not on the comp, on the comp when im not sleeping, the usual holiday stuff and on top of that ive been playing a whole lot of ps2.. hmms im getting ffx-2 from frank so that should keep me occupied for a while, didnt get around to finishing that game.
ive also finished watching Shuffle! the anime series. it was a pretty good anime. some people might flame me for this coz shuffle is like more of a girls anime but still. i liked it very much. i think i got emotionally in touch with it no matter how weird that sounds. i remember at one point i was raging coz the main character took a while to confess his feelings. in some ways i can relate to the main charcter, Rin-kun. but yeah =P here goes me again xD
ps. ASA SENPAI LOVE <3333
ive got alot to do these holidays, alot of resolutions and things that i wanna do. some of which ive been waiting to do for a long time.
anyways ill prob add and then cross off the things that ive done when the time comes. anyways for the meantime im off im going beach today meeting everyone at bondi at 11AM. need my sleep. till next time
laters.
ive also finished watching Shuffle! the anime series. it was a pretty good anime. some people might flame me for this coz shuffle is like more of a girls anime but still. i liked it very much. i think i got emotionally in touch with it no matter how weird that sounds. i remember at one point i was raging coz the main character took a while to confess his feelings. in some ways i can relate to the main charcter, Rin-kun. but yeah =P here goes me again xD
ps. ASA SENPAI LOVE <3333
ive got alot to do these holidays, alot of resolutions and things that i wanna do. some of which ive been waiting to do for a long time.
- post a youtube video with garmon
- hold at least one house bbq at my house
- garmons christmas with the virays ( yearly tradition) =D
- catch up with people, rekindle old friendships
- dotathon
- campsie phO day out
- go laser tag and paintball
- beach
- movie mara again
- burn hsc stuff etc.
- plan my birthday party (i already have ideas ! :D)
- get fit
- get back into my basketball groove LOL.
- meet new people.
- catch up with various tv shows ( havent been lately coz of being capped)
- have the most fun i can have
anyways ill prob add and then cross off the things that ive done when the time comes. anyways for the meantime im off im going beach today meeting everyone at bondi at 11AM. need my sleep. till next time
laters.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Entourage
ahh good time today hanging with lazy bond femo and eventually roger at lazy's house.
basically i woke up at 12 helped clean with the aftermath of last nights family party and say goodbye to my dad coz he went to philippines to make sure my grandmas alright then got a lift to station from mum and went to femos house. at femos i played a game of dota and watched femo make a bong. took a while for lazy to come coz he rode his bike. man lazy so tank drove a bike that was on perma brake. tank guy. anyways when lazy came we got into bonds car and drove to riverwood and got some fish and chips. then crashed rogers and dragged him to lazy's house. at lazys house we did alot of shit. im not gonna mention what happened but if youve ever watched the tv show "entourage" then yeah we did most of the stuff in there =p
lol lazy's got like the cutest little kitten as well ill upload a photo. fully cute when it was sleeping on my lap. ZOMG i wanna steal if off you lazy xD
also today roger had many gold quotes
"wtf how did the cat shit in the toilet wouldnt it fall inside the bowl even though its so small"
anyways i feel kinda weird atm so yeah sorry if i didnt explain the day much ill re-edit this post later on =)
laters
basically i woke up at 12 helped clean with the aftermath of last nights family party and say goodbye to my dad coz he went to philippines to make sure my grandmas alright then got a lift to station from mum and went to femos house. at femos i played a game of dota and watched femo make a bong. took a while for lazy to come coz he rode his bike. man lazy so tank drove a bike that was on perma brake. tank guy. anyways when lazy came we got into bonds car and drove to riverwood and got some fish and chips. then crashed rogers and dragged him to lazy's house. at lazys house we did alot of shit. im not gonna mention what happened but if youve ever watched the tv show "entourage" then yeah we did most of the stuff in there =p
lol lazy's got like the cutest little kitten as well ill upload a photo. fully cute when it was sleeping on my lap. ZOMG i wanna steal if off you lazy xD
also today roger had many gold quotes
"wtf how did the cat shit in the toilet wouldnt it fall inside the bowl even though its so small"
anyways i feel kinda weird atm so yeah sorry if i didnt explain the day much ill re-edit this post later on =)
laters
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Wheres The Party At?
ahh post hsc life is pretty good... when your not at home hehe haha yeah its pretty shitty if you stay at home i stayed home today after like 2days of going out and it was pretty damn craptastic. didnt do much today besides sleep and laze around. actually i think it felt craptastic coz i was fully drained from the last two days. like wednesday after pdhpe when to play some hardcore bball and yesterday i went to star city buffet to celebrate end of hsc exams for all of us. ( more on that later..) but yeah basicaly my legs feel like jelly hurts to kinda walk but im hanging in there. haha im going rogers 2mr to install dota for him and bum then i dunno what im doing after. happy birthday to my sister btw.
anyways time to talk about star city buffet. first off this day was pretty tiring. i spent like 90% of the day walking around places. haha i woke up at like 9ish and called garmon met up with david, leith, garmon and jackee at city at 11 and then bummed till like 1. then trekked it up to that jap place and waited with leith until the ladies finished talking to james jackee and david. in my opinon i think they are getting scammed on theyre trip to japan and that david was getting hit on by that chick LOL anyways after that walked back down george street to get some oportos then went with james to central park said my goodbyes to jackee lease and david. then started walking all the way from town hall to central park. my god that sucked. trekking so far. then played some bball with ushan and alias came so did bruce then kenny then in a blink of an eye all the chem ppl came and we bummed at central park talking and stuff. then we decided to go bum arnd the city and by that time it was like 5:30. then as we got to central saw the fobs bond quentin garson and raymond. talked for abit hten waited for ware. then from central station walked all the way to star city ( fuck that was far) but yeah as soon as we got to star city i just pigged out. so much fkin food. out of the $33.90 i paid for all you can eat i ate like $25 of it. it was worth it ^^ even though i felt kinda shitty afterwards coz i ate too much but still. damn prawns too good. haha everyone there had like mountain fulls of prawn skins haha everyone was just pigging out on them . so funny. anyways we left star city at like 9 ish and walked all the way back to chinatown for some net cafe and dota. gold times with the crew. haha we left the city at like around 11 or something.
pretty fkin tiring day but all in all it was a joyous occasion. hanging with the guys. gold times just dissing alias and andy. and thinking about our theories of jun2u, mikelicios and condom in korea. gold times. ahaha
so that was pretty much my day out at star city buffet. anyways im off for now im going rogers at like 10 so i need my sleep
laters.
ps. you suck leah for not having the internet.
hehe
anyways time to talk about star city buffet. first off this day was pretty tiring. i spent like 90% of the day walking around places. haha i woke up at like 9ish and called garmon met up with david, leith, garmon and jackee at city at 11 and then bummed till like 1. then trekked it up to that jap place and waited with leith until the ladies finished talking to james jackee and david. in my opinon i think they are getting scammed on theyre trip to japan and that david was getting hit on by that chick LOL anyways after that walked back down george street to get some oportos then went with james to central park said my goodbyes to jackee lease and david. then started walking all the way from town hall to central park. my god that sucked. trekking so far. then played some bball with ushan and alias came so did bruce then kenny then in a blink of an eye all the chem ppl came and we bummed at central park talking and stuff. then we decided to go bum arnd the city and by that time it was like 5:30. then as we got to central saw the fobs bond quentin garson and raymond. talked for abit hten waited for ware. then from central station walked all the way to star city ( fuck that was far) but yeah as soon as we got to star city i just pigged out. so much fkin food. out of the $33.90 i paid for all you can eat i ate like $25 of it. it was worth it ^^ even though i felt kinda shitty afterwards coz i ate too much but still. damn prawns too good. haha everyone there had like mountain fulls of prawn skins haha everyone was just pigging out on them . so funny. anyways we left star city at like 9 ish and walked all the way back to chinatown for some net cafe and dota. gold times with the crew. haha we left the city at like around 11 or something.
pretty fkin tiring day but all in all it was a joyous occasion. hanging with the guys. gold times just dissing alias and andy. and thinking about our theories of jun2u, mikelicios and condom in korea. gold times. ahaha
so that was pretty much my day out at star city buffet. anyways im off for now im going rogers at like 10 so i need my sleep
laters.
ps. you suck leah for not having the internet.
hehe
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Relief
OMFG HSC IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D
ahh the feeling i had 2hours into my exam was so good coz i knew basically that i pwnt that test. it was a relatively easy/alright test as it wasnt hard. omg sigh it feels good to finish. im hoping for a 80 + in that exam so yeah :D. its good that i ended hsc on a good note. i think in my past tests i barely did average and yeah im hoping i can just get the uai i want to get into uni. id like to say thank you for everyone whos wished me luck over the past weeks and whos prayed for me to do well. i needed all those "good luck" it helped me and yeah thankfully luck was on my side for most of these exams. so thanks everyone =)
anyways after the pdhpe exam me and richard ventured to aquatic centre where we played bball for a while then went to eat dougies. good times with richard pretty funny talking about the whole campaign in america just talking about possibilities pretty funny. but yeah hmms OMG IS OVER :D:D:D:D:D!!!! haha its a good feeling that i have nothing much to worry about schooling for now. though it doesnt really feel different that ive finished just less of a burden as i cant do anything about my tests its over with and just needta move on and yeah haha. the next couple of days are gonna be hectic, tomorrow i got a buffet with the boys as everyone finishes with chemistry tomorrow so we're gonna celebrate the end of hsc. friday i might be going out to go job hunting and saturday im gonna hang out as well. so yeah its gonna be a tiring 3 days but i have to live life to the fullest over the next couple of months so yeah (not that i already havent but you know =p)
ahah anyways im off now im pretty tired from bball
till next time
laters.
ps. goodluck all chem ppl :D
pwn it hard
ahh the feeling i had 2hours into my exam was so good coz i knew basically that i pwnt that test. it was a relatively easy/alright test as it wasnt hard. omg sigh it feels good to finish. im hoping for a 80 + in that exam so yeah :D. its good that i ended hsc on a good note. i think in my past tests i barely did average and yeah im hoping i can just get the uai i want to get into uni. id like to say thank you for everyone whos wished me luck over the past weeks and whos prayed for me to do well. i needed all those "good luck" it helped me and yeah thankfully luck was on my side for most of these exams. so thanks everyone =)
anyways after the pdhpe exam me and richard ventured to aquatic centre where we played bball for a while then went to eat dougies. good times with richard pretty funny talking about the whole campaign in america just talking about possibilities pretty funny. but yeah hmms OMG IS OVER :D:D:D:D:D!!!! haha its a good feeling that i have nothing much to worry about schooling for now. though it doesnt really feel different that ive finished just less of a burden as i cant do anything about my tests its over with and just needta move on and yeah haha. the next couple of days are gonna be hectic, tomorrow i got a buffet with the boys as everyone finishes with chemistry tomorrow so we're gonna celebrate the end of hsc. friday i might be going out to go job hunting and saturday im gonna hang out as well. so yeah its gonna be a tiring 3 days but i have to live life to the fullest over the next couple of months so yeah (not that i already havent but you know =p)
ahah anyways im off now im pretty tired from bball
till next time
laters.
ps. goodluck all chem ppl :D
pwn it hard
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
One Last Time
thats right one more hsc exam then ill be finished wooo... i cant wait till its over and done with seriously omg cant wait. hmms anyways i did sufficient study/cramming today i suppose so yeah hopefully ill be alright. i think imma wake up at 5am tomorrow like i usually do before every exam and cram. haha one more last time with this exam routine.. sigh and also seeing richard in the morning in the libary attempting to cram haha gold times.
its funny coz the test tomorrow is my final test ever of high school feels weird finishing 12 years of schooling but itll be a relief. i just pray to god i get a good uai and yeah haha wish me luck =)
anyways this is gonna be a short post since i did one earlier today (points below)
imma be off to sleep now
till next time, wish me luck :D
Last Stop: PDHPE
laters
its funny coz the test tomorrow is my final test ever of high school feels weird finishing 12 years of schooling but itll be a relief. i just pray to god i get a good uai and yeah haha wish me luck =)
anyways this is gonna be a short post since i did one earlier today (points below)
imma be off to sleep now
till next time, wish me luck :D
Last Stop: PDHPE
laters
The Years Gone By
hmms ive been cramming pdhpe since like 12ish and i guess most things are coming back to me. ive learnt core 1 well most of it and hopefully i can just go over some more and hopefully ill be fine 2mr :D
anyways i was kinda bored ( thus me bloggin atm) so i decided to upload some photos of me from like when i was a little kid to now
<---- this is a picture of me if i was an anime character. (pretty true dont you think deheh )
anyways thats me through the ages. as you can see i am incredibly bored. but yeah that wasted a good 20 mins anyways imma get back to studying pdhpe. ill blog later tonight.
laters.
anyways i was kinda bored ( thus me bloggin atm) so i decided to upload some photos of me from like when i was a little kid to now
<---- this is a picture of me if i was an anime character. (pretty true dont you think deheh )
anyways thats me through the ages. as you can see i am incredibly bored. but yeah that wasted a good 20 mins anyways imma get back to studying pdhpe. ill blog later tonight.
laters.
Hang In There
hanging in there... i have one more left and thats what everyones been saying to me to just hang in there for that last test and then itll be all over. it sucks waiting for something especially something that could decide your future. it just sucks waiting for it coz you want it to be over and done with. sigh i just hope i can get through pdhpe.
ill hafto cram heaps today just to cover most topics overall i think ill be alright or ill hope ill be so yeah wish me luck :)
i should really stop sleeping regularly at like 3am. its becoming pretty much of a habit and its a bad one. its pretty unhealthy sleeping so late and sleeping in so much its like bad for your health or something so i gotta stop =/ imma try wake up early today and cram for 12 hrs. just one more and i can be at ease...
anyways i think im gonna cut it short for today.
till next time
laters.
ps. goodluck to all the physics people =)
ill hafto cram heaps today just to cover most topics overall i think ill be alright or ill hope ill be so yeah wish me luck :)
i should really stop sleeping regularly at like 3am. its becoming pretty much of a habit and its a bad one. its pretty unhealthy sleeping so late and sleeping in so much its like bad for your health or something so i gotta stop =/ imma try wake up early today and cram for 12 hrs. just one more and i can be at ease...
anyways i think im gonna cut it short for today.
till next time
laters.
ps. goodluck to all the physics people =)
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Dizzy
i just realised it was November like a few minutes ago and it made me realised time flew by so quickly this year, i remember alot of things from last year as they were happenings from yesterday. sigh time flies by so quickly. anyways nothing much to say for today cept for the fact that pdhpe my last hsc exam and last high school exam ever is in 3 days. ive barely done jack for it hopefully i can cram my way to a mark of 80 and above. i really need to do well in pdhpe or my uai and hsc is gonna be fucked but yeah hopefully i can manage in the next two days..
argh ive been having this constant headache since church today and its really bugging me ive had some panadol but it doesnt really seem to be kicking in. i think i should sleep early tonight and wake up early tomorrow to get some good cramming in.
anyways off for now
till next time
laters.
argh ive been having this constant headache since church today and its really bugging me ive had some panadol but it doesnt really seem to be kicking in. i think i should sleep early tonight and wake up early tomorrow to get some good cramming in.
anyways off for now
till next time
laters.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Sending Postcards From a Plane Crash
im starting to lose trust in people and kinda be disappointed in some as well.. i guess lately i hate how people dont realise whats right in front of them. sigh oh wells. i guess its just me being negative and things.
anyways i was reading my friend Ting's blog like two nights ago and it inspired me to write a post similar to hers. this goes out to like a couple of people in my life atm.
-you sometimes seem to disappoint me but at times you are able to pull me through and realise things arent bad. but sometimes i feel that you dont really notice whats going on or you think less of me coz of the things i do or coz im emo over shit in the past. but when you do think less of me i feel you are being a hypocrite coz you seem to do the same thing i do but you just dont notice it... but i dont know these are just feelings as off late but yeah maybe im just overthinking but oh wells. but nonetheless you are my best friend and your one of the people i have high regards for and respect and would want to keep a friend for the rest of my life.
-your a happy one =). im kinda glad you started that convo with me on msn and told me some stuff that i thought you wouldnt tell me coz i didnt seem that close at the time. but i guess on my part im happy that i got to know you better and we can have random convos at times haha =) also for you if you didnt notice this. your a youtube freak LOL joks =p who sends me heaps of youtube links but its cool coz theyre interesting, keep linking me :D . anyways hope those convos keep continuing on in the future =D
-your a funny but gay guy. youll probably never get around to reading this but i value our friendship. we have pretty random convos at night and we needta find a new mmorpg for after hsc. your a gold guy my friend , hope we can keep in touch when we all go off to uni =D dw youll get a 90 if not you can live with me:D
-your korean. makes lame jokes. and always does gay shit to me. nuff said haha nah jokes if you ever read this your a gold guy always making random lame jokes at times. you always get a smile or laugh out of me even if im down so im thankful for that hope this friendship keeps on going through the years bro :D
-you told me today that i told you alot of stuff last year to do with my past. and i was wtf at the time =O but then i remember that convo of truth or dare that we played. was a funny night we told eachother alot of secrets and im kidna glad you rememebr it. we havent seen eachother in like 10 months but its cool we'll catch up after hsc =) ps. i i ...
-you have ronald mcdonald hair. i doubt youll ever read blogs coz your angry and all but yeah. we've been tight since like yr 9. though back then you used to be angry now your just kinda gay =p haha jokes bro. we're cool nigger.
-this goes out to 2 people. the bio kr3w haha us 3 sitting in the back row. the tank guy, the filo guy and the emo guy. gold times in biology just talking about random shit. your both cool guys ive always got your backs with everything and i hope you guys have my back as well. gold times talking abt our problems in class and playing tetris underneath the table and also lsitening to eachothers random rants and watching girl interrupted on the psp. you two guys are probably one of the few people who i want to make an effort to keep in contact after all this hsc business is over and uni begins.
-you are one of the nicest guys i know. always looking out for me and shouting me money when i need it. we always have random tussles on the bball court with me just pwning you and laughing in a "deheheh " manner and also random stuff on dota but its all in the fun of it and i guess thats what makes us close. i hope we end up in the same uni as the other guys so we can continue our friendship.
-you disappoint me with your shit logic abt certain things. and you let me down. sometimes i feel you have no regard for my feelings and your often just thinking abt what you want to do next with that "person". we can sometimes have alright convos like deep and meaningful ones but sometimes when it comes to something i say or my problems you end up all cold and just being wtf. it cuts me that you do that coz when it comes to you and you ask me for help i always give you advice. we'er friends but im just wtf at you at times and im uncertain at times of what you think of me as.
-you two are both short, and are similar, you were born on the same day. and your both stooges haha =p nah jokes i guess i havent been talking to either of you much lately so sorry about that but dw we'll catch up after hsc =). i feel like i can talk to you guys about most things and yeah im kinda glad we got to meet eachother randomly at state. i dont really remember how we started talking but you guys thought of me as being quiet. guess you guys were wrong aye ;)
-we used to catch the train with eachother back in the day. but you moved and i hafta catch the train by myself =( and now your catching the bus i used to catch. haha nah its cool. we've managed to keep in contact randomly at times. it feels good catching up with you coz yeah we just can talk about anything.
-your the guy who used to make fun of my american accent, i used to get pissed but now im cool with it. we've gotten to be pretty good friends with our lame handshake and our lame stylez. haha gold times we've had though esp after party at formals. gay shit but it was memorable just doing that shit with you. pretty funny looking back and how far we've come. your one of those guys id just hang with for fun and stuff and i hope after this year we'll manage to keep in contact.
-your a fob guy with good jokes and we've spent some good times in the 2 years ive known you. from business studies to tutor. your one gold guy who does gay shit with me at times. but yeah im glad you transferred to tech. you made the year more lively and yeah just spending time with you and you helping me with my problems really got me through some times so im thankful for that. hope we keep in contact and we both end up at macquarie with eachother =D
-ive given you random nicknames during maths but one sticks and its a green object. i dont know you that much but from the times we;ve bummed and played dota and maple with eachother i found you to be an awesome guy. your cod4 skills are unmatched. your an overall gamer and i respect you for that.
-last but not least. the white guy. the guy who was in every one of my classes this year. gold times in pdhpe and biology. and random times with you at state and also during pdhpe class. haha your a horny guy i must say but your one of the funniest gusy i know. like seriously dude you make me laugh with the random poses you do and the random stuff you do. hope we can keep in touch after this year coz your a friend id want to keep in touch with after all of this is done.
ahh that was longer than expected but yeah sorry ting for kinda taxing your idea but i felt like i needed to do it so yeah credit to ting for giving me the idea =)
anyways on msn today was talking to leah and she was being weird. she was having orgasms over msn. dont know who over though. (its not me might i add, though wish it was LOL jokes =p) ill copy and paste some of it now
leah says (22:10): freakin aaaaaaaaa
leah says (22:10): OMG OMG
leah says (22:10): WTF LIKE SERIOUSLYYYY
leah says (22:11): but like seriously wtf!!!!
leah says (22:12): GAHHHHHHHHHHHH
leah says (22:12): WHY GOTA BE SO HOT FOR
leah says (22:13): FUCK
leah says (22:14): WAH
leah says (22:15): FUCKIN HELL
leah says (22:18): OMG OMG
leah says (22:24): i need to breathe
leah says (22:24): too orgasmic for one night
leah says (22:24): HAHAHA EW SHIT THAT SOUNDED SO BAD
basically the convo was like that. she was pretty orgasmed tonight. i found it quite amusing so yeah thanks leah for making my night full of amusement =p with your orgasmicness on msn LOL
hmms i think this was a long blog so ill leave it at here.
laters.
anyways i was reading my friend Ting's blog like two nights ago and it inspired me to write a post similar to hers. this goes out to like a couple of people in my life atm.
-you sometimes seem to disappoint me but at times you are able to pull me through and realise things arent bad. but sometimes i feel that you dont really notice whats going on or you think less of me coz of the things i do or coz im emo over shit in the past. but when you do think less of me i feel you are being a hypocrite coz you seem to do the same thing i do but you just dont notice it... but i dont know these are just feelings as off late but yeah maybe im just overthinking but oh wells. but nonetheless you are my best friend and your one of the people i have high regards for and respect and would want to keep a friend for the rest of my life.
-your a happy one =). im kinda glad you started that convo with me on msn and told me some stuff that i thought you wouldnt tell me coz i didnt seem that close at the time. but i guess on my part im happy that i got to know you better and we can have random convos at times haha =) also for you if you didnt notice this. your a youtube freak LOL joks =p who sends me heaps of youtube links but its cool coz theyre interesting, keep linking me :D . anyways hope those convos keep continuing on in the future =D
-your a funny but gay guy. youll probably never get around to reading this but i value our friendship. we have pretty random convos at night and we needta find a new mmorpg for after hsc. your a gold guy my friend , hope we can keep in touch when we all go off to uni =D dw youll get a 90 if not you can live with me:D
-your korean. makes lame jokes. and always does gay shit to me. nuff said haha nah jokes if you ever read this your a gold guy always making random lame jokes at times. you always get a smile or laugh out of me even if im down so im thankful for that hope this friendship keeps on going through the years bro :D
-you told me today that i told you alot of stuff last year to do with my past. and i was wtf at the time =O but then i remember that convo of truth or dare that we played. was a funny night we told eachother alot of secrets and im kidna glad you rememebr it. we havent seen eachother in like 10 months but its cool we'll catch up after hsc =) ps. i i ...
-you have ronald mcdonald hair. i doubt youll ever read blogs coz your angry and all but yeah. we've been tight since like yr 9. though back then you used to be angry now your just kinda gay =p haha jokes bro. we're cool nigger.
-this goes out to 2 people. the bio kr3w haha us 3 sitting in the back row. the tank guy, the filo guy and the emo guy. gold times in biology just talking about random shit. your both cool guys ive always got your backs with everything and i hope you guys have my back as well. gold times talking abt our problems in class and playing tetris underneath the table and also lsitening to eachothers random rants and watching girl interrupted on the psp. you two guys are probably one of the few people who i want to make an effort to keep in contact after all this hsc business is over and uni begins.
-you are one of the nicest guys i know. always looking out for me and shouting me money when i need it. we always have random tussles on the bball court with me just pwning you and laughing in a "deheheh " manner and also random stuff on dota but its all in the fun of it and i guess thats what makes us close. i hope we end up in the same uni as the other guys so we can continue our friendship.
-you disappoint me with your shit logic abt certain things. and you let me down. sometimes i feel you have no regard for my feelings and your often just thinking abt what you want to do next with that "person". we can sometimes have alright convos like deep and meaningful ones but sometimes when it comes to something i say or my problems you end up all cold and just being wtf. it cuts me that you do that coz when it comes to you and you ask me for help i always give you advice. we'er friends but im just wtf at you at times and im uncertain at times of what you think of me as.
-you two are both short, and are similar, you were born on the same day. and your both stooges haha =p nah jokes i guess i havent been talking to either of you much lately so sorry about that but dw we'll catch up after hsc =). i feel like i can talk to you guys about most things and yeah im kinda glad we got to meet eachother randomly at state. i dont really remember how we started talking but you guys thought of me as being quiet. guess you guys were wrong aye ;)
-we used to catch the train with eachother back in the day. but you moved and i hafta catch the train by myself =( and now your catching the bus i used to catch. haha nah its cool. we've managed to keep in contact randomly at times. it feels good catching up with you coz yeah we just can talk about anything.
-your the guy who used to make fun of my american accent, i used to get pissed but now im cool with it. we've gotten to be pretty good friends with our lame handshake and our lame stylez. haha gold times we've had though esp after party at formals. gay shit but it was memorable just doing that shit with you. pretty funny looking back and how far we've come. your one of those guys id just hang with for fun and stuff and i hope after this year we'll manage to keep in contact.
-your a fob guy with good jokes and we've spent some good times in the 2 years ive known you. from business studies to tutor. your one gold guy who does gay shit with me at times. but yeah im glad you transferred to tech. you made the year more lively and yeah just spending time with you and you helping me with my problems really got me through some times so im thankful for that. hope we keep in contact and we both end up at macquarie with eachother =D
-ive given you random nicknames during maths but one sticks and its a green object. i dont know you that much but from the times we;ve bummed and played dota and maple with eachother i found you to be an awesome guy. your cod4 skills are unmatched. your an overall gamer and i respect you for that.
-last but not least. the white guy. the guy who was in every one of my classes this year. gold times in pdhpe and biology. and random times with you at state and also during pdhpe class. haha your a horny guy i must say but your one of the funniest gusy i know. like seriously dude you make me laugh with the random poses you do and the random stuff you do. hope we can keep in touch after this year coz your a friend id want to keep in touch with after all of this is done.
ahh that was longer than expected but yeah sorry ting for kinda taxing your idea but i felt like i needed to do it so yeah credit to ting for giving me the idea =)
anyways on msn today was talking to leah and she was being weird. she was having orgasms over msn. dont know who over though. (its not me might i add, though wish it was LOL jokes =p) ill copy and paste some of it now
leah says (22:10): freakin aaaaaaaaa
leah says (22:10): OMG OMG
leah says (22:10): WTF LIKE SERIOUSLYYYY
leah says (22:11): but like seriously wtf!!!!
leah says (22:12): GAHHHHHHHHHHHH
leah says (22:12): WHY GOTA BE SO HOT FOR
leah says (22:13): FUCK
leah says (22:14): WAH
leah says (22:15): FUCKIN HELL
leah says (22:18): OMG OMG
leah says (22:24): i need to breathe
leah says (22:24): too orgasmic for one night
leah says (22:24): HAHAHA EW SHIT THAT SOUNDED SO BAD
basically the convo was like that. she was pretty orgasmed tonight. i found it quite amusing so yeah thanks leah for making my night full of amusement =p with your orgasmicness on msn LOL
hmms i think this was a long blog so ill leave it at here.
laters.
Friday, October 31, 2008
17 now, got his life in his hands, he's looking all around and he doesn't understand...
..'coz life's too busy, things get in the way
we all feel alone every single day...
Cartel - Wasted .. download it =)
anyways nothing really much happened today woke up at like 11 in the morning coz jeffrey called me asking if i wanted to go basketball i agreed and yeah went back to sleep, then woke up at 2pm ate and bludged till 5 then took a train to the city to get some ballin on. basketball was alright today it took my mind of things for like a hour or two. i guess basketball is the thing that i guess i always will have my life. it takes me away for 1 or 2 hours but it feels like forever. basketball just shuts out all those thoughts in my head and i just think about the game. god i love it.
i played like a couple of games today pretty good besides being rusty and kinda unfit it didnt matter coz i had fun. i went with roger ware alias ushan jeff and john. then after we went to eat pho at city house. nice stuff havent eaten it in a while.
overall today was good for me helped me get my mind of things so i thank jeff for inviting me. but yeah i guess one day couldnt take that feeling away but it helped.
anyways who is the guest that commented in my comment box =o?
im really curious haha
anyways im off
laters.
we all feel alone every single day...
Cartel - Wasted .. download it =)
anyways nothing really much happened today woke up at like 11 in the morning coz jeffrey called me asking if i wanted to go basketball i agreed and yeah went back to sleep, then woke up at 2pm ate and bludged till 5 then took a train to the city to get some ballin on. basketball was alright today it took my mind of things for like a hour or two. i guess basketball is the thing that i guess i always will have my life. it takes me away for 1 or 2 hours but it feels like forever. basketball just shuts out all those thoughts in my head and i just think about the game. god i love it.
i played like a couple of games today pretty good besides being rusty and kinda unfit it didnt matter coz i had fun. i went with roger ware alias ushan jeff and john. then after we went to eat pho at city house. nice stuff havent eaten it in a while.
overall today was good for me helped me get my mind of things so i thank jeff for inviting me. but yeah i guess one day couldnt take that feeling away but it helped.
anyways who is the guest that commented in my comment box =o?
im really curious haha
anyways im off
laters.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
From Where You Are
i basically did nothing today again, cept sleep and watch entourage. entourage is a pretty good show ,watch it =) but yeah. my mood is slightly, wait nah its still the same. what sucks though now is that my family friend or my tito as they would say it in tagalog even though they were not your uncle or aunty or not, his dad died and when i heard this i just started to end up in that spiral again.. that spiral of all these random emo thoughts going arnd in my head... sigh..
hmms sam brought up the issue today of clare she asked me " do you miss clare?" and my answer without hesitating was "yes". i started to think about it and i do miss clare.. so here it is clare, if your reading this blog, i do miss you, i have missed you for a while ever since that stuff happened even if i blew up on abt it and you in my post before, i miss you... i just miss the times...but anyways i dunno you probably dont but yeah...just being straightforward and open to you about it, like i always been with you even though its in a blog but yeah.. dont know if your gonna read this but yeah...
anyways im off
laters.
ps. i havent really been opening up to anyone lately. so im sorry that i havent and sorry for making anyone worried im jsut finding it hard to open up these days..i guess im geting dragged down...sorry =/
hmms sam brought up the issue today of clare she asked me " do you miss clare?" and my answer without hesitating was "yes". i started to think about it and i do miss clare.. so here it is clare, if your reading this blog, i do miss you, i have missed you for a while ever since that stuff happened even if i blew up on abt it and you in my post before, i miss you... i just miss the times...but anyways i dunno you probably dont but yeah...just being straightforward and open to you about it, like i always been with you even though its in a blog but yeah.. dont know if your gonna read this but yeah...
anyways im off
laters.
ps. i havent really been opening up to anyone lately. so im sorry that i havent and sorry for making anyone worried im jsut finding it hard to open up these days..i guess im geting dragged down...sorry =/
Empty Apartment
my mood didnt change much today, it was kinda the same still something dragging me down from being happy or at least close to it. i slept alot today slept at like 2 am last night woke up at 11 chatted to leah and garmon till like 12:00 i think :S then slept till 1 logged on msn and talked to leah for a while then i think i took another nap at like 3 - 3:30 then got on msn and bludged and played on boredaussie with lease and david. then i remember taking another nap at like 6ish and woke up at 8pm i seriously cant remember my memory has somehow declined as of late im starting to forget things easier. maybe its coz im growing older or maybe coz im sick? i hafta follow up on that..
so yeah basicallly i slept alot today and wasted my time on the compl playing games and such. i really want my nba 2k8 back, i feel like playing basketball and also cod4. im gonna try study pdhpe 2mr or today since its past 12 already. i needta read over some of core 1 and i rkn ill be alright. actually ill print out my notes and highlight them. should be alright i hope =/
i was talking to femo on msn abt post hsc stuff. me and him think things wont be really hectic. itll be probably the same old thing we do at home. wake up and play games at home. we'll probably just go out more and bludge and stuff but thats about it. just a bit more money using and stuff. i actually thought i was looking forward to after hsc. but for me even though theres one more exam left it feels like hsc is already over and it doesnt really feel any different. and i dont really think that ill be feeling any different after pdhpe next week as well. sigh wtf is going on with me...
talking to leah today also made me remember alot of thigns to do after hsc. one of them is going out to shop for new clothes. i need some new things my closet seems too old. hmms i should ask someone to go out with me and shop and see how it is. we'll see what happens...
she also showed me a youtube clip of bianca and lydia singing... far out leah why do that for jokes =p sigh bianca.....*snaps out of it*..
on msn tonight i won alot of games like poker against christine. now she owes me a maccas meal, a shouted outing and a jumper. i also beat james in ranking on tetris pretty funny how he raged coz i beat him after like a few times playing. sucked in james =p
anyways im off to do more random shiz
laters.
so yeah basicallly i slept alot today and wasted my time on the compl playing games and such. i really want my nba 2k8 back, i feel like playing basketball and also cod4. im gonna try study pdhpe 2mr or today since its past 12 already. i needta read over some of core 1 and i rkn ill be alright. actually ill print out my notes and highlight them. should be alright i hope =/
i was talking to femo on msn abt post hsc stuff. me and him think things wont be really hectic. itll be probably the same old thing we do at home. wake up and play games at home. we'll probably just go out more and bludge and stuff but thats about it. just a bit more money using and stuff. i actually thought i was looking forward to after hsc. but for me even though theres one more exam left it feels like hsc is already over and it doesnt really feel any different. and i dont really think that ill be feeling any different after pdhpe next week as well. sigh wtf is going on with me...
talking to leah today also made me remember alot of thigns to do after hsc. one of them is going out to shop for new clothes. i need some new things my closet seems too old. hmms i should ask someone to go out with me and shop and see how it is. we'll see what happens...
she also showed me a youtube clip of bianca and lydia singing... far out leah why do that for jokes =p sigh bianca.....*snaps out of it*..
on msn tonight i won alot of games like poker against christine. now she owes me a maccas meal, a shouted outing and a jumper. i also beat james in ranking on tetris pretty funny how he raged coz i beat him after like a few times playing. sucked in james =p
anyways im off to do more random shiz
laters.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Vienna
lately ive been feeling....
sad
i dont know but lately theres just been some sad feeling thats overcoming me. i went out today to the city with garmon leith jeffrey david henry edmond to just go to a netcafe and bum, coz david lease and jeff finished theyre exams and wanted to go city after to celebrate. thing is though during the times we were playing cod 4 or dota i did not at all feel happy. i dont know if sad is the right word but inside it felt weird it was like something was nagging at my feelings or was just pulling my mood down.
i dont know if this will last in the long run but its definetly not easily going away. sigh..
on a lighter note i got one hsc exam left: pdhpe. hopefully i can ace it.
laters.
ps. gdluck to everyone doing 3unit maths =)
sad
i dont know but lately theres just been some sad feeling thats overcoming me. i went out today to the city with garmon leith jeffrey david henry edmond to just go to a netcafe and bum, coz david lease and jeff finished theyre exams and wanted to go city after to celebrate. thing is though during the times we were playing cod 4 or dota i did not at all feel happy. i dont know if sad is the right word but inside it felt weird it was like something was nagging at my feelings or was just pulling my mood down.
i dont know if this will last in the long run but its definetly not easily going away. sigh..
on a lighter note i got one hsc exam left: pdhpe. hopefully i can ace it.
laters.
ps. gdluck to everyone doing 3unit maths =)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Futures
i sat my maths exam today, 3hrs of maths and that was it for the rest of my life, well not really theres still maths in comm if i do it. but yeah i dont know how good or bad i went i came out of the test with a neutral feeling. i just hope i did alright. the questions didnt seem that hard but yeah oh wells. its done now. but yeah. i guess its just kinda weird that these exams we're sitting now are exams that can very well shape your future. it sucks though i havent been up to par with study. i think study just hates me and i hate studying. i just find the idea of it boring. i just cant be bothered anymore, well its not like i bothered to begin with but argh i keep pushing myself to do some study. i jsut sometimes think "do i really care abt my future?" i obviously do but wtf am i doing to make it happen ARGH! =/ i dunno, maybe its coz i mostly "go with the flow" with things but yeah sigh i've got ONE more exam left. i better make the most of these 8days i have of study. i just hope i can get some retribution from pwning pdhpe. well hopefully...
anyways aside from maths today was scorching hot. pretty annoying and sweaty and shit i basically walked arnd the house in thongs boxers and a singlet. so fucking hot... hopefully it isnt too hot 2mr. i actually cant wait for it. david jeff lease, what lucky bastards finishing 2mr. i guess im just gonna relax and hang with garmon and them. i need one of these days to get my mind of things such as hsc and the things that are going on at home. i honestly dont know whats going on with my dad now. i can tell that hes pretty down in the dumps. i just dont know what to do..
and btw who is that guest who commented in my comment box =/..
anyways imma be off
laters.
anyways aside from maths today was scorching hot. pretty annoying and sweaty and shit i basically walked arnd the house in thongs boxers and a singlet. so fucking hot... hopefully it isnt too hot 2mr. i actually cant wait for it. david jeff lease, what lucky bastards finishing 2mr. i guess im just gonna relax and hang with garmon and them. i need one of these days to get my mind of things such as hsc and the things that are going on at home. i honestly dont know whats going on with my dad now. i can tell that hes pretty down in the dumps. i just dont know what to do..
and btw who is that guest who commented in my comment box =/..
anyways imma be off
laters.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Strange And Unprepared
dammit, i pretty much wasted a day due to my talent of procrastinating. i barely did any maths today and ill suffer the consequences tomorrow during the 3hrs of my test tomorrow. im basically winging the exam tomorrow, just basing it mostly on all my knowledge that i learnt during class. ARGH there goes my hsc down the drain and im being serious about this, im not one of those guys who are like " omg im gonna fail" and get lke 80 or some shit. im seriously gonna fail. sigh just the mood of it all, i dont feel like studying, ever since those first few tests business and english. i just got over hsc. it feels like its over since i only have to more left. maths and pdhpe. sigh i just pray and wish and hope that the test is easy tomorrow, i just wanna pass or something...
i guess a lot of things have been affecting my mood lately. esp my dad's mood. he got a phonecall from his cousin in the philippines that his mum (my grandma) could die any moment now, from what i remember from my dad telling me when we last visited philippines my grandma had a stroke a couple of years back and basically she cant do anything but lie in bed all day... sigh i really wish my parents would be more open with me about this... i hadto figure this out through when my mum and dad were speaking tagalog. when i heard it i just felt shocked and had this feeling in my chest sigh its just making me feel shitty and along with me being unprepared for maths just piles up. sigh i wish i had more time.. and i pray that my grandma gets more time, my dad might be flying to the philippines to be there. i hope hes able to see her... too much shit has been happening lately. its just..=(
hmms even though theres a possiblilty that i wont get into the uni that i want im kinda trying to think positive like theres all these other ways of getting into uni just hsc is one the easiest ways. ill just hafta persevere through it all..
anyways imma go sleep or do some maths questions in the hopes of it clicking in my brain for 2mr..
5th stop: Maths
laters.
i guess a lot of things have been affecting my mood lately. esp my dad's mood. he got a phonecall from his cousin in the philippines that his mum (my grandma) could die any moment now, from what i remember from my dad telling me when we last visited philippines my grandma had a stroke a couple of years back and basically she cant do anything but lie in bed all day... sigh i really wish my parents would be more open with me about this... i hadto figure this out through when my mum and dad were speaking tagalog. when i heard it i just felt shocked and had this feeling in my chest sigh its just making me feel shitty and along with me being unprepared for maths just piles up. sigh i wish i had more time.. and i pray that my grandma gets more time, my dad might be flying to the philippines to be there. i hope hes able to see her... too much shit has been happening lately. its just..=(
hmms even though theres a possiblilty that i wont get into the uni that i want im kinda trying to think positive like theres all these other ways of getting into uni just hsc is one the easiest ways. ill just hafta persevere through it all..
anyways imma go sleep or do some maths questions in the hopes of it clicking in my brain for 2mr..
5th stop: Maths
laters.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Flux: Happy Birthday James
ah finally, i finished biology for the last time in my high school life. the paper wasnt really that hard or easy but i dont know i felt kinda dodgy abt it. some pretty dodgy questions in it but nonetheless im gonna try and not dwell over it and get a move on with maths. need to cram that hardcore this weekend in order to get 80 or above. i needto get taht to make sure my uai dragged down more than it already is so yeah i think im going state with richard today, hes gonna try teach me some maths. hopefully it works and ill be able to learn shit that i once had problems with :)
i feel pretty tired now. biology took out alot of energy from me, like after the exam i felt pretty drained. i was supposed to go state today with richard but cbb so went home and slept for a while. i dont get why im tired i ahd like a red bull and coffee in the morning, that should be enough to keep me through the day right ? wrong. caffiene has no effect on me at all. i think i grew tolerant to it or maybe it was that period of time where i didnt drink any thing with caffiene in it coz i didnt sleep one night.
haha i had this period of caffiene free francis was like in yr 5 i drank like heaps of coke one night and didnt sleep the whole night, i kinda got scared of not being able to drink anything like coke ora nything that had caffiene in so i basically just quit caffiene based products. it laste like a year then i just started drinking again and it was fine. i think in that time some antibodies were produced to combat the antigens of caffiene and such ( biology talk) and its probably why an immune response was triggered thus me being immune to caffiene.
but yeah i think i have some iron deficiency or something . i feel tired and stuff i should get my blood checked to see if anythings up =/ anyways imma be off to bed, feel extremely tired now.
laters.
i feel pretty tired now. biology took out alot of energy from me, like after the exam i felt pretty drained. i was supposed to go state today with richard but cbb so went home and slept for a while. i dont get why im tired i ahd like a red bull and coffee in the morning, that should be enough to keep me through the day right ? wrong. caffiene has no effect on me at all. i think i grew tolerant to it or maybe it was that period of time where i didnt drink any thing with caffiene in it coz i didnt sleep one night.
haha i had this period of caffiene free francis was like in yr 5 i drank like heaps of coke one night and didnt sleep the whole night, i kinda got scared of not being able to drink anything like coke ora nything that had caffiene in so i basically just quit caffiene based products. it laste like a year then i just started drinking again and it was fine. i think in that time some antibodies were produced to combat the antigens of caffiene and such ( biology talk) and its probably why an immune response was triggered thus me being immune to caffiene.
but yeah i think i have some iron deficiency or something . i feel tired and stuff i should get my blood checked to see if anythings up =/ anyways imma be off to bed, feel extremely tired now.
laters.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Biorogy
ahh i just got home from a pretty long day out studying. and its amazing coz i did study. i woke up at like 7am called garmon like 15 times then woke him up then yeah ate breakfast. i eventually got out of the house at 10 LOL and yeah got a lift to the station and took a train.
i got on the train just expecting it to be a normal train ride but then i take a seat and look in front of me or diagonally and guess who i see? MONICA my family friend that i knew since like i was a baby. it was pretty random though i hadnt seen her in a while like in 2 years =o but yeah it took me a while, my eyesight is pretty bad now so yeah i squinted a bit then yeah said hi and stuff it was pretty random but it was good seeing her. anwyays then got to state at like 11 then got down to some work. i took the occasionally 20 minute but i did enough study i guess till 1:30 then went to get some food to eat.. then i see someone else i know ROSANNA, pretty random as well, it was the girl i "picked up" at a tutor test. but yeah i didnt say hi coz i was too scared but yeah anyways after lunch came back and garmon came and studied till 5:30. garmon wanted to go uts to visit abhinay so we left at 5:30 and trekked it to uts. it wasnt that much of a long walk but i guess it was coz i was with garmon and we chatted about good shiz.
anyways got to uts at arnd 6 then studied till like 8 or something went to eat dinner got back at 9 and studied for a bit. i had a good talk with abhinay and yeah today was an alright day for studying.
im just kinda scared though, too much content to remember sigh hopefully i can sleep soon and wake up early and cram haha.
anyways im off to get some sleep
nights , wish me good luck ^^v
laters.
i got on the train just expecting it to be a normal train ride but then i take a seat and look in front of me or diagonally and guess who i see? MONICA my family friend that i knew since like i was a baby. it was pretty random though i hadnt seen her in a while like in 2 years =o but yeah it took me a while, my eyesight is pretty bad now so yeah i squinted a bit then yeah said hi and stuff it was pretty random but it was good seeing her. anwyays then got to state at like 11 then got down to some work. i took the occasionally 20 minute but i did enough study i guess till 1:30 then went to get some food to eat.. then i see someone else i know ROSANNA, pretty random as well, it was the girl i "picked up" at a tutor test. but yeah i didnt say hi coz i was too scared but yeah anyways after lunch came back and garmon came and studied till 5:30. garmon wanted to go uts to visit abhinay so we left at 5:30 and trekked it to uts. it wasnt that much of a long walk but i guess it was coz i was with garmon and we chatted about good shiz.
anyways got to uts at arnd 6 then studied till like 8 or something went to eat dinner got back at 9 and studied for a bit. i had a good talk with abhinay and yeah today was an alright day for studying.
im just kinda scared though, too much content to remember sigh hopefully i can sleep soon and wake up early and cram haha.
anyways im off to get some sleep
nights , wish me good luck ^^v
laters.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Maintaining A Balance
it feels like i havent blogged in ages, when in fact i blogged yesterday. its weird coz i guess i spend most of my day sleeping and lazing around. sigh
biology on friday GG. ive barely done enough, there goes my hsc. =(
hmms i planned to go state today but ended up not going coz of the weather, it felt so cold and demotivating or unmotivating? i dunno which one it is but yeah basically just stayed home snuggled up in my bed and thought then eventually went on the comp to do osme biology multiple choice and chat and stuff then go back to bed. sighh i feel so stoned atm.
not coz of weed of course but lately ive been feeling tired for no reason. i dont get it ive been getting like 8hrs sleep which is supposed to be the norm but i still feel tired. i remembe waking up at 10 this morning having a cup of coffee then going back to sleep... lik wtf?!?! doesnt caffiene have any effect on me anymore =/ haha
anyways on other agendas ive been thinking a lot (wow sucha suprise =O) haha just about my future, last night was pretty emo for me, garmon and a bunch of other people. sigh it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, theres just somethings i feel that i hafta fix up coz they were left just without getting solved. oh wells time will tell all. hopefully ill be able to get down to fixing it up all.. hopefully..
rofl also last night me richard garmon and jlin were "GGing" peoples facebook walls, sigh richard your a gold guy always thinking of random ideas but it was quite fun, we GGed like 3 peopls wall's or 4 i cant remember, dw GG will get to you soon ;)
anyways i shall leave you guys with a video that i came across in the folder " my logitech videos"*suss*...
laters.
biology on friday GG. ive barely done enough, there goes my hsc. =(
hmms i planned to go state today but ended up not going coz of the weather, it felt so cold and demotivating or unmotivating? i dunno which one it is but yeah basically just stayed home snuggled up in my bed and thought then eventually went on the comp to do osme biology multiple choice and chat and stuff then go back to bed. sighh i feel so stoned atm.
not coz of weed of course but lately ive been feeling tired for no reason. i dont get it ive been getting like 8hrs sleep which is supposed to be the norm but i still feel tired. i remembe waking up at 10 this morning having a cup of coffee then going back to sleep... lik wtf?!?! doesnt caffiene have any effect on me anymore =/ haha
anyways on other agendas ive been thinking a lot (wow sucha suprise =O) haha just about my future, last night was pretty emo for me, garmon and a bunch of other people. sigh it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, theres just somethings i feel that i hafta fix up coz they were left just without getting solved. oh wells time will tell all. hopefully ill be able to get down to fixing it up all.. hopefully..
rofl also last night me richard garmon and jlin were "GGing" peoples facebook walls, sigh richard your a gold guy always thinking of random ideas but it was quite fun, we GGed like 3 peopls wall's or 4 i cant remember, dw GG will get to you soon ;)
anyways i shall leave you guys with a video that i came across in the folder " my logitech videos"*suss*...
laters.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Engrish finirshered 4 lifureh
ahh if you dont get my blog title, it says " english finished for life"
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no more area of study, no more modules , fuck yeah im happy. but im only halfway through the hsc. three out of six. but i guess ill be even more relieved after maths and biology are finished. the two subjects that give me heaps of trouble, even though im asian and i should be good at maths im not so i better maths and biology it up in this coming week.
biology is on friday so imma devote most of my days to bio then the rest to maths. maths is next monday so on the weekends imma maths it hardcorely. thats the game plan. time to initiate.
then after maths i have 9 days till pdhpe so i should be alright. ill be attending garmons halloween party dressed up as a fighter pilot just like tom cruise with the song " danger zong" by tony loggins playing in the background ( how i met your mother reference, watch that tv show, its awesome)
anyways im off to do some bludging a bit, then sleep and yeah wake up and study.
laters.
ps. garmon i know the 4th stop for you is dick town, you secretly wanna helicopter us all.
dick town is a game played by garmon where he lurks underneath tables looking for peoples dicks and then sucking them
while we were studying garmon decided to play a game of dick town.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no more area of study, no more modules , fuck yeah im happy. but im only halfway through the hsc. three out of six. but i guess ill be even more relieved after maths and biology are finished. the two subjects that give me heaps of trouble, even though im asian and i should be good at maths im not so i better maths and biology it up in this coming week.
biology is on friday so imma devote most of my days to bio then the rest to maths. maths is next monday so on the weekends imma maths it hardcorely. thats the game plan. time to initiate.
then after maths i have 9 days till pdhpe so i should be alright. ill be attending garmons halloween party dressed up as a fighter pilot just like tom cruise with the song " danger zong" by tony loggins playing in the background ( how i met your mother reference, watch that tv show, its awesome)
anyways im off to do some bludging a bit, then sleep and yeah wake up and study.
laters.
ps. garmon i know the 4th stop for you is dick town, you secretly wanna helicopter us all.
dick town is a game played by garmon where he lurks underneath tables looking for peoples dicks and then sucking them
while we were studying garmon decided to play a game of dick town.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Engrish R2
english paper 2 is 2mr, and i dont know if im ready or not, im probably not but hopefully 2mr when im under the pressure i can perform. i just hope i remember all my techniques and such. like 3 essays each with one prescribed text and two related text GG. hopefully i can wake up 2mr at like 5:30 again and cram for a hour and a half.
anyways asides from that my weekend has been bludgy, i feel so lazy and stuff and i dont know why. i constantly feel uber tired at times so i end up napping and wasting 2hrs or so sigh i gotta stop sleeping so late so bad for my health =/. lol tonight sam asked me a question about my past and why me and brabra broke up. and it kinda shook me coz i didnt really know why. its like that part of my campsie bumming past was kinda just evaporated, it kinda like was blank and yeah so i asked leann and she explained, quite funny i guess but nonetheless kinda weird o.O. then sam popped the question to me if ive changed. i dunno its kinda hard to judge .everyone changes whether its bad or good. im just kinda a bad judge at it. lol sam said i was more accepting of things that im less cut over things then before. is it a good thing or a bad thing?
sometimes during times of emones i feel emotionless its weird. but oh wells.. hmms =/
this blog kinda seems weird so imma stop here
goodluck to everyone in english paper 2 pwn it hard !
3rd stop: English Paper 2
laters
anyways asides from that my weekend has been bludgy, i feel so lazy and stuff and i dont know why. i constantly feel uber tired at times so i end up napping and wasting 2hrs or so sigh i gotta stop sleeping so late so bad for my health =/. lol tonight sam asked me a question about my past and why me and brabra broke up. and it kinda shook me coz i didnt really know why. its like that part of my campsie bumming past was kinda just evaporated, it kinda like was blank and yeah so i asked leann and she explained, quite funny i guess but nonetheless kinda weird o.O. then sam popped the question to me if ive changed. i dunno its kinda hard to judge .everyone changes whether its bad or good. im just kinda a bad judge at it. lol sam said i was more accepting of things that im less cut over things then before. is it a good thing or a bad thing?
sometimes during times of emones i feel emotionless its weird. but oh wells.. hmms =/
this blog kinda seems weird so imma stop here
goodluck to everyone in english paper 2 pwn it hard !
3rd stop: English Paper 2
laters
Friday, October 17, 2008
Engrish Payper One...
...is done. WOO no more area of study. the test though, i didnt find it that badd, well not as bad as business. i felt confident that i did well when the lady said "pens down, stop writing" i dont know why, but i just felt good with the test i just did. i guess cause all the question like creative writing choices and the extended response question all applied to my creative writing story and to my essay. and for the first section i felt alright it cause i kept finding techniques and kept writing.
i wrote like a whole booklet for section 1, whole booklet for creative writing and a booklet and one page for the extended response. dont ask why i write so much or how i do write so much, i just kept writing and writing without really looking up once. guess only thing im worried about is that i didnt get to go through all my papers. i finished with like 2mins on time and i hadto just write my student number and stuff but yeah either than that i did good.. well hopefully i did ! but yeah thats it for english area of study, haha on facebook neon has his status as keep all your notes and we'll create a massive bon fire after its all done. haha cant wait for that.
2 down 4 more to go, sigh cant wait !!!!
anyways in other agendas, well nothing really has happened in my life besides tests..but yeah
hmms i was on the train home atm and my phone couldnt recieve any more msg coz its memory was full so i delted some stuff but as i was deleting stuff i was looking through old texts and yeah it kinda make me smile just looking back and yeah i remember seeing a text saying " oh coz i actually told her on monday that i might be falling for you" i dont know why it made me smile but it was from a particular person from my past that meant alot to me and was important to me. ill leave it in suspense and you guys can guess =b. then went through all this messages from clare, frank garmon roger alias richard. they were all good funny times. especially one from richard saying " hey francis i cant sleep right now i feel so horny" and alias's sms consisting only of ";)" pretty gold but yeah, im still going my msgs as i type ( yes im pro i can multitask) i have like around 2500 msgs. pretty much heaps if you like times that by 0.25 i spent like $625 =o holy shit but yeah, sigh reading msgs from .. just reminds me so much of how good it was.. and how it made me feel so happy and yeah all the late night phone calls at 3am, all the times i went to parra library but instead of studying watched a movie, all the random msgs with "i miss you" "i wanna see you too" and the random times at state with david as a 3rd wheel LOL... sigh.. anyways *Snaps out of it* i ended up not deleting anymore msgs. i guess i like to hold on to the memories but yeah. i kind of wonder, what would you do if you did lose your memories, like yeah obviously you would not know that you did, but if you found out if you did would you try to get them back? would you try to figure out who you were and who meant something to you in your life? (if im making no sense plz just disregard what im saying about this LOL) but yeah made me wonder but oh wells...
anyways imma be off to nap or something
feel pretty tired
laters.
i wrote like a whole booklet for section 1, whole booklet for creative writing and a booklet and one page for the extended response. dont ask why i write so much or how i do write so much, i just kept writing and writing without really looking up once. guess only thing im worried about is that i didnt get to go through all my papers. i finished with like 2mins on time and i hadto just write my student number and stuff but yeah either than that i did good.. well hopefully i did ! but yeah thats it for english area of study, haha on facebook neon has his status as keep all your notes and we'll create a massive bon fire after its all done. haha cant wait for that.
2 down 4 more to go, sigh cant wait !!!!
anyways in other agendas, well nothing really has happened in my life besides tests..but yeah
hmms i was on the train home atm and my phone couldnt recieve any more msg coz its memory was full so i delted some stuff but as i was deleting stuff i was looking through old texts and yeah it kinda make me smile just looking back and yeah i remember seeing a text saying " oh coz i actually told her on monday that i might be falling for you" i dont know why it made me smile but it was from a particular person from my past that meant alot to me and was important to me. ill leave it in suspense and you guys can guess =b. then went through all this messages from clare, frank garmon roger alias richard. they were all good funny times. especially one from richard saying " hey francis i cant sleep right now i feel so horny" and alias's sms consisting only of ";)" pretty gold but yeah, im still going my msgs as i type ( yes im pro i can multitask) i have like around 2500 msgs. pretty much heaps if you like times that by 0.25 i spent like $625 =o holy shit but yeah, sigh reading msgs from .. just reminds me so much of how good it was.. and how it made me feel so happy and yeah all the late night phone calls at 3am, all the times i went to parra library but instead of studying watched a movie, all the random msgs with "i miss you" "i wanna see you too" and the random times at state with david as a 3rd wheel LOL... sigh.. anyways *Snaps out of it* i ended up not deleting anymore msgs. i guess i like to hold on to the memories but yeah. i kind of wonder, what would you do if you did lose your memories, like yeah obviously you would not know that you did, but if you found out if you did would you try to get them back? would you try to figure out who you were and who meant something to you in your life? (if im making no sense plz just disregard what im saying about this LOL) but yeah made me wonder but oh wells...
anyways imma be off to nap or something
feel pretty tired
laters.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Got Down To Business, Got Pwnt By Business
the mood after the business studies test today was pretty shit, well among my close group of friends, garmon, david , jeff and leith, they all found it a pretty shit test. hearing david saying ' FUCK, shittest test ever" and shit like that after it was all done. i really dont know how i did in that test, like i had a few moments of blankness throughout the test where i just spaced out, but after a while of thinking i answered the questions. i answered all of them in fact and i dont know i felt alright i guess. sigh well i hope i did alright, cant afford to get fucked =/
anyways well all i can say is that, that is it for business studies for the rest of my life, i feel fully relieved that i finished that exam, i guess business was an exam that i fully got scared and worried about and i could feel it in my stomach this morning, the feeling of nervousness and scaredynes( is that even a word?) but yeah i fully felt sick in the car, pretyt shit feeling but yeah nonetheless thats over with, no point on dwelling on it. got english paper 1 tomorrow.
i dont know if its in my right to say, but i feel okay with english? well paper 1 at least. i feel cocky about it and i know i shouldnt, i dont know why but yeah after this blog imma type up my shit and go over it, hopefully itll be enough to get me good 2mr. whats really dodgy abt 2mr is that essay, creative and comprehension is all worht the same 15 marks. so yeah i just hope i can cram it out and do good.
anyways off to finish typing up my notes.
wish me luck and goodluck to everyone else :)
2nd stop: English Paper 1
laters.
anyways well all i can say is that, that is it for business studies for the rest of my life, i feel fully relieved that i finished that exam, i guess business was an exam that i fully got scared and worried about and i could feel it in my stomach this morning, the feeling of nervousness and scaredynes( is that even a word?) but yeah i fully felt sick in the car, pretyt shit feeling but yeah nonetheless thats over with, no point on dwelling on it. got english paper 1 tomorrow.
i dont know if its in my right to say, but i feel okay with english? well paper 1 at least. i feel cocky about it and i know i shouldnt, i dont know why but yeah after this blog imma type up my shit and go over it, hopefully itll be enough to get me good 2mr. whats really dodgy abt 2mr is that essay, creative and comprehension is all worht the same 15 marks. so yeah i just hope i can cram it out and do good.
anyways off to finish typing up my notes.
wish me luck and goodluck to everyone else :)
2nd stop: English Paper 1
laters.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
12hrs and 20mins HSC Begins: The Nerves Are Kicking In
as the title says, the nerves are kicking in, as i took the bins out and when i was walking down the rampway, the nerves just started kicking in, just the fact that 12 years of schooling comes to this, all those small tests, like basic skills test, the o.c test, the selective test, ella and so far and here the big one is the HSC, where all that shit from school it jsut comes down to this test, and i admit im feeling the pressure to perfom.
i would like to think i kept to schedule today but i didnt really, i woke up at 7am though, called garmon and yeah thing was though, i didnt get out of bed, i was too tired so yeah i kinda struggled and ended up getting up at 11. then ate and that kinda took me a hour so ended up getting down to business at 12. i was pretty impressed with my study, i studied like 2hrs straight, took a break, then studied 2hrs again. then i felt kinda tired so i napped for a hour then woke up ate dinner and then did some business past papers, and here i am blogging. so all in all im pretty okay with my studies today, ill probably study a bit more after this and then hopefully get to sleep before 10. i plan to sleep at 10 then wake up at like 5:30 and cram like 2hrs or so and hopefully im set. wish me luck everybody, ill be needing it ><", i cant wait till business is over, its one test im extremly worried about=( hope its not too hard...
lol i just finished saying goodbye to everyone on msn, as i am quitting msn until the hsc, hopefully i can be able to just go home and study after every test, no more procrastinating on msn. but dont be sad, ill still be blogging and yeah so keep in touch, comment on my shiz, call me, txt me or whatever :D
anyways imma be off now, to cram for a bit then go to sleep. wish me luck everyone, and i hope all of you guys study hard and pwn the hsc. i love you all :D
GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE DOING THE HSC.
1st stop: Business Studies.
laters.
i would like to think i kept to schedule today but i didnt really, i woke up at 7am though, called garmon and yeah thing was though, i didnt get out of bed, i was too tired so yeah i kinda struggled and ended up getting up at 11. then ate and that kinda took me a hour so ended up getting down to business at 12. i was pretty impressed with my study, i studied like 2hrs straight, took a break, then studied 2hrs again. then i felt kinda tired so i napped for a hour then woke up ate dinner and then did some business past papers, and here i am blogging. so all in all im pretty okay with my studies today, ill probably study a bit more after this and then hopefully get to sleep before 10. i plan to sleep at 10 then wake up at like 5:30 and cram like 2hrs or so and hopefully im set. wish me luck everybody, ill be needing it ><", i cant wait till business is over, its one test im extremly worried about=( hope its not too hard...
lol i just finished saying goodbye to everyone on msn, as i am quitting msn until the hsc, hopefully i can be able to just go home and study after every test, no more procrastinating on msn. but dont be sad, ill still be blogging and yeah so keep in touch, comment on my shiz, call me, txt me or whatever :D
anyways imma be off now, to cram for a bit then go to sleep. wish me luck everyone, and i hope all of you guys study hard and pwn the hsc. i love you all :D
GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE DOING THE HSC.
1st stop: Business Studies.
laters.
Judgement Day, Tomorrow 9:20am: Getting Down To The Business End Of The Season?
as i sit here drinking my hot chocolate milo, i realise that tomorrow at this time, id probably be sleeping or feeling guilty that i did shit in my first hsc exam. argh, i guess ive been lying to myself lately and to other people, telling them im feeling fine abt hsc and tht ive done heaps of study. but heres the truth, ive barely done enough study these holidays, NO WHERE NEAR ENOUGH, sigh and lately these nearly sleepless nights have been the cause of constant feelings of guilt, sadness and hope that i will do good for hsc. im currently wide awake atm, business notes right in front of me, nothings been getting through so ill give up, nothings been getting through for like the 5 hrs ive been studying business. fuck im so screwed i just hope today that i will cram the fuck out of myself and jsut hope i can apply everything i learn of business in this one test. this one 3 hour test.
anyways on the note of my not so bright future, i was talking to garmon abt this, he feels the shit i feel too. i dont nkow why im wide awake atm. it just sucks, just talking about uni all i want to get is a uai of 82.55 to get in macquarie for commerce. but i feel so shit that i wont get it. sigh depressing... its like garmon said, we spent like 2weeks of our holidays only god knows what, i dont even know where those two weeks went, it feels like two weeks of my life were just ripped out of the space time continuum, or maybe i just procrastinated it. im guessing i procrastinated it...but anyways now here i am bloggin about my despair over hsc. *sips milo* i hope this hot milo choc can get me sleepy, and hope i can wake up at like 7am or 8am tomorro, call garmon, have breakfast and get down to business. i sincerely pray for this, just for everyone i care about to do good and hsc and for me to just get through this and get good in the hsc and get a good uai. i wish i could make 1000 cranes now and just wish for me to get a good uai. haha am i sounding desperate? wishful thinking? yeah i guess...hope i study goodly today.
anyways on a lighter note was talking to leah on msn about bianca along with some other stuff. i kinda like retelling what happened back then. it kinda makes me feel like the old ted from "how i met your mother" just retelling my past and stuff and how i got to this point. i kinda got abruptly interrupted by leah while telling the story, nah jokes she was tired but yeah so she went to sleep and i told her id tell her the story next time. its like an episode ends with a "to be continued..". i guess life is like that. moments in your life often end in to be continued. either it be when your telling someone you like them over the phone and theres that sudden silence or when you fall asleep that moment is a to be continued because life is always random and changing. you decide it. and im guessing im just relating this to myself(i dont get what i jsut typed). i need to study. haha i can see garmon now being like " there you go again comparing yourself to a tv show, life isnt liek that", yeah i know but i like to dream, just like that song by the game and kanye west "dreams" dehehe and garmon man, i love you LOL. gold times. *sips milo*
ive also realised that ive been blogging everyday of this month i think, i guess i want to look back at this in a years time and be like, "awesomee" and who knows maybe one day i can turn these posts into episodes of some sort of sitcom called "how i met garmon" LOL or my blog title "dreaming with a broken heart" or some shiz like that. probably not.. but i can dream right? *sips milo*
my cup is empty now so i guess its a sign of me to get off the comp get into bed and hopefully get a good few hours of sleep, then wake up, call garmon , eat brekkie then jsut get down to some serious cramming.
wish me luck guys.
and even though it seems like i cant save the world as of yet. i will one day... eventually...
just need to get through hsc first.. just needta get through 20more days...
just 20 more.. *pumps fist to promote self -esteem* lol..
laters.
anyways on the note of my not so bright future, i was talking to garmon abt this, he feels the shit i feel too. i dont nkow why im wide awake atm. it just sucks, just talking about uni all i want to get is a uai of 82.55 to get in macquarie for commerce. but i feel so shit that i wont get it. sigh depressing... its like garmon said, we spent like 2weeks of our holidays only god knows what, i dont even know where those two weeks went, it feels like two weeks of my life were just ripped out of the space time continuum, or maybe i just procrastinated it. im guessing i procrastinated it...but anyways now here i am bloggin about my despair over hsc. *sips milo* i hope this hot milo choc can get me sleepy, and hope i can wake up at like 7am or 8am tomorro, call garmon, have breakfast and get down to business. i sincerely pray for this, just for everyone i care about to do good and hsc and for me to just get through this and get good in the hsc and get a good uai. i wish i could make 1000 cranes now and just wish for me to get a good uai. haha am i sounding desperate? wishful thinking? yeah i guess...hope i study goodly today.
anyways on a lighter note was talking to leah on msn about bianca along with some other stuff. i kinda like retelling what happened back then. it kinda makes me feel like the old ted from "how i met your mother" just retelling my past and stuff and how i got to this point. i kinda got abruptly interrupted by leah while telling the story, nah jokes she was tired but yeah so she went to sleep and i told her id tell her the story next time. its like an episode ends with a "to be continued..". i guess life is like that. moments in your life often end in to be continued. either it be when your telling someone you like them over the phone and theres that sudden silence or when you fall asleep that moment is a to be continued because life is always random and changing. you decide it. and im guessing im just relating this to myself(i dont get what i jsut typed). i need to study. haha i can see garmon now being like " there you go again comparing yourself to a tv show, life isnt liek that", yeah i know but i like to dream, just like that song by the game and kanye west "dreams" dehehe and garmon man, i love you LOL. gold times. *sips milo*
ive also realised that ive been blogging everyday of this month i think, i guess i want to look back at this in a years time and be like, "awesomee" and who knows maybe one day i can turn these posts into episodes of some sort of sitcom called "how i met garmon" LOL or my blog title "dreaming with a broken heart" or some shiz like that. probably not.. but i can dream right? *sips milo*
my cup is empty now so i guess its a sign of me to get off the comp get into bed and hopefully get a good few hours of sleep, then wake up, call garmon , eat brekkie then jsut get down to some serious cramming.
wish me luck guys.
and even though it seems like i cant save the world as of yet. i will one day... eventually...
just need to get through hsc first.. just needta get through 20more days...
just 20 more.. *pumps fist to promote self -esteem* lol..
laters.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Little Thoughts
i was supposed to do this like two hours ago, as i told everyone on msn i was going to get food " brb im gonna get food" i did end up getting food but also going to my room to lay down. i felt extremly tired at the time so i just decided to lie down. i ended up taking a nap with the tv on and here i am now freshly awake from a power nap feeling not tired. pretty random i guess. but nonetheless im blogging. i guess i am a sleepyhead as leah would say.
anyways i went to state yesterday. was it productive on my part? no not really, but it was better than what i would do at home. i got to state at like 10:43 ish or something, i cant remember and i worked steadily till like 12:30 then headed out to get lunch with garmon, lease, liz and lucy. i ended up filling my jap craving today by getting chicken katsu don. my god i was happy. anyways after that garmon wanted to get parfait so ewnt to max brenners but to his depression there wasnt any so he ended up getting a chocolate lick. LOL nah jokes he didnt it just sounds funny. he ordered like a frappe btw. after this walked back to state and tried to get some study done. i realised it was reptty hard. i hate being one of those people who are like easily distracted coz i just dont stop being distracted i just continue on. anyways after a while of bludging garmon came up with another theory, that everyone who walked up or down the stairs, male or female and theyre holding onto the rail means they want dick, if theyre not they are satifisied sexually. after a few laughs here and there with garmon i actually began to just look over notes and highlight. i learnt some shit but not as much study as i intended to. need to fully crank it up these next two days to achieve maximum results in business and must cram to the max. anyways at like 7ish decided to leave. took a train home with besney, had some interest convos but pretty much it. i realised i hate walking home on like a night where during the day it was pretty hot. its all sticky and stuff and it was pretty random coz when i got home and got changed i was like itchy in most places and im like wtf. damn mosquitoes. 4 seasons have like past and ive just realised that its been so quick. i remember not so long ago i was blogging abt bianca. sigh good old past bloggging times.
i also realised today that i extremely suck at creative writing, i dont know why im just not creative enough i just seem to overthink a lot and my stories end up being recounts, thanks garmon for the advice. i needta work on that before eng paper 1....
the amazing thing was abt today (well yesterday) was that i woke up at 7am. im trying to get back into that habit of waking up at 7am coz i hafto. coz if i think about it. my routine on my hsc test days will be. wake up at 7, spend 15mings getting out of bed. 7:15 get out of bed wash face toilet etc. then shower at 7:20 - 7:30, eat breakfast get ready and by the time ist 8 im outta my house and on the way to school. get to school at like 8:45 then i have like half a hour to cram and also the travelling time. pretty efficient shit i jsut needta wake up early.
there are alot of advantages and disadvantages of waking up
advantages:
disadvantages:
but yeah
i dont know ive mentioned this, but recently ive been growing a beard. i know coz im asian its physically impossible to do so. but im just gonna try. so suck you guys for being like " nah man you cant do it" coz i probably wont. but its fun. ive been growing it since the start of the holidays. its not a beard, but basically its some cool goatee and moustache. its my hsc beard, see how long it is after hsc, and probably shave it. random much? yeah i guess but its funsies.
anyways thats enough funsies for today.
time to resume downloading albums and such again.
over and out.
laters.
ps. how do you pronounce the letter "Z", ZEE or ZED? discuss
anyways i went to state yesterday. was it productive on my part? no not really, but it was better than what i would do at home. i got to state at like 10:43 ish or something, i cant remember and i worked steadily till like 12:30 then headed out to get lunch with garmon, lease, liz and lucy. i ended up filling my jap craving today by getting chicken katsu don. my god i was happy. anyways after that garmon wanted to get parfait so ewnt to max brenners but to his depression there wasnt any so he ended up getting a chocolate lick. LOL nah jokes he didnt it just sounds funny. he ordered like a frappe btw. after this walked back to state and tried to get some study done. i realised it was reptty hard. i hate being one of those people who are like easily distracted coz i just dont stop being distracted i just continue on. anyways after a while of bludging garmon came up with another theory, that everyone who walked up or down the stairs, male or female and theyre holding onto the rail means they want dick, if theyre not they are satifisied sexually. after a few laughs here and there with garmon i actually began to just look over notes and highlight. i learnt some shit but not as much study as i intended to. need to fully crank it up these next two days to achieve maximum results in business and must cram to the max. anyways at like 7ish decided to leave. took a train home with besney, had some interest convos but pretty much it. i realised i hate walking home on like a night where during the day it was pretty hot. its all sticky and stuff and it was pretty random coz when i got home and got changed i was like itchy in most places and im like wtf. damn mosquitoes. 4 seasons have like past and ive just realised that its been so quick. i remember not so long ago i was blogging abt bianca. sigh good old past bloggging times.
i also realised today that i extremely suck at creative writing, i dont know why im just not creative enough i just seem to overthink a lot and my stories end up being recounts, thanks garmon for the advice. i needta work on that before eng paper 1....
the amazing thing was abt today (well yesterday) was that i woke up at 7am. im trying to get back into that habit of waking up at 7am coz i hafto. coz if i think about it. my routine on my hsc test days will be. wake up at 7, spend 15mings getting out of bed. 7:15 get out of bed wash face toilet etc. then shower at 7:20 - 7:30, eat breakfast get ready and by the time ist 8 im outta my house and on the way to school. get to school at like 8:45 then i have like half a hour to cram and also the travelling time. pretty efficient shit i jsut needta wake up early.
there are alot of advantages and disadvantages of waking up
advantages:
- you have the whole day left for you to study, in my case my whole day if i woke up at 7am would be (7am - 3am)
- get used to the whole waking up early thing, instead of when on hsc tests your like " oh fuck" when you miss your alarm and miss the test
- you just wake up.
- my dad makes me coffee
- get breakfast in.
- your able to do alot of shit throughout the day
disadvantages:
- it sucks if you sleep late.
- not be able to function throughout the day if you slept late the night before
- in the winter its freezing.
- waking up early is just not my thing
- morning glory? (i dont know its just hard to aim LOL)
- the fact that i hadto wake up early could be cause of a shit reason.
- i dunno *mumbled in francis accent*
but yeah
i dont know ive mentioned this, but recently ive been growing a beard. i know coz im asian its physically impossible to do so. but im just gonna try. so suck you guys for being like " nah man you cant do it" coz i probably wont. but its fun. ive been growing it since the start of the holidays. its not a beard, but basically its some cool goatee and moustache. its my hsc beard, see how long it is after hsc, and probably shave it. random much? yeah i guess but its funsies.
anyways thats enough funsies for today.
time to resume downloading albums and such again.
over and out.
laters.
ps. how do you pronounce the letter "Z", ZEE or ZED? discuss
Monday, October 13, 2008
UNCAPPED.. oh shiee
im pretty happy now, coz im uncapped, sigh good times, now i can get back to downloading tv shows, it felt so long waiting for this moment, ever since 10 iwas waiting for it to be 12, and when i saw the clock and it only said 11 i was pretty sad, coz it felt like 5 hrs had gone by, funny thing is when it hit 12 i didnt notice and only noticed just now that im uncapped, pretty crazy.
ANYWAYS, 3 days left till my FIRST exam, business studies first up. i must admit ive barely done jack for business and its funny coz im not really feeling the pressure of hsc. i blame the post trial period, we had like a month or so to bum after trials that all we did was just that, i barely did anything. but yeah oh wells, must cram it up in these times. going state library today at like 9am, hope my sister wakes me up. haha suckas they still have so much time left till they finish school and LOL at wendie, if your reading this , sucked in 1more year left for you to finish, while i have 24 days left muahaha :D
and leah, scarlett johansson is the best, dont know whats wrong with you LOL jokes leah :P
hmms anyways imma be off to download tv shows and go sleep as well, need to get back into the habit of sleeping early or GG hsc, wake up late and miss the exam. ive become like nocturnal during the holidays, sleeping at 5am then waking up at like 3pm onwards. must break that habit. imma vow to sleep at like 10pm at least, or 11pm wake up at 7am cram a bit then try to pwn the test. keyword there being "try" haha
and on msn ive been cracking lame smart ass jokes esp to sam. gosh lol
heres an example:
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (00:39):
hows ur day
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
lol well
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
its only been 40mins of the day
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
so its been alright
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
yours?
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (00:40):
AAHAHAH
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (00:40):
:P gosh being a smart ass
anyways im off. vic (not vic xiong) said its 26 degrees today, damn good day for the beach. but hsc. study. argh CANT WAIT TILL AFTER HSC GONNA RIP IT UP.
laters.
ANYWAYS, 3 days left till my FIRST exam, business studies first up. i must admit ive barely done jack for business and its funny coz im not really feeling the pressure of hsc. i blame the post trial period, we had like a month or so to bum after trials that all we did was just that, i barely did anything. but yeah oh wells, must cram it up in these times. going state library today at like 9am, hope my sister wakes me up. haha suckas they still have so much time left till they finish school and LOL at wendie, if your reading this , sucked in 1more year left for you to finish, while i have 24 days left muahaha :D
and leah, scarlett johansson is the best, dont know whats wrong with you LOL jokes leah :P
hmms anyways imma be off to download tv shows and go sleep as well, need to get back into the habit of sleeping early or GG hsc, wake up late and miss the exam. ive become like nocturnal during the holidays, sleeping at 5am then waking up at like 3pm onwards. must break that habit. imma vow to sleep at like 10pm at least, or 11pm wake up at 7am cram a bit then try to pwn the test. keyword there being "try" haha
and on msn ive been cracking lame smart ass jokes esp to sam. gosh lol
heres an example:
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (00:39):
hows ur day
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
lol well
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
its only been 40mins of the day
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
so its been alright
[AFA '08] francis ♪~! ゼロ says (00:40):
yours?
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (00:40):
AAHAHAH
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (00:40):
:P gosh being a smart ass
anyways im off. vic (not vic xiong) said its 26 degrees today, damn good day for the beach. but hsc. study. argh CANT WAIT TILL AFTER HSC GONNA RIP IT UP.
laters.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Back2Back
i woke up at 3:35pm today, fuck i dont get how i can sleep so long, maybe coz i sleep late? but yeah, half my day pretty ruined, but suprisingly i managed to get a biology text book out, and do some questions, that was pretty pro but either than that i did no other study. pretty bl as garmon would say, with hsc in like 4 days or 5, i cant count properly, ahh so screwed ><
this week is going to be ultimate cramming for me, i think im gonna quit the comp (doubt it) when hsc finishes, just print out all my notes, and then wednesday night when i get off thatll be probably the last time ill be on the comp or on msn at least, ill probably still be blogging but yeah, needta get off the comp, wasted a lot of time procrastinating on the comp these holidays, sigh its fucken killing my study. if only i wasnt the procrastinator i was, id get good study done, but im easily distracted so it sucks. but oh wells, 4 more days need to put into motion some good study/cram.
argh this is pissing me off, my mouse the roller thing is like broken or something, so i cant use it to scroll down, its quite annoying coz im so used to it, now i hafta manually click. sad days !
back 2 back - chris brown, check that shizzle out =)
anyways im off to attempt to sleep early, my nights of sleeping at 5am havent stopped, hopefully tonight ill be able to sleep earlier, hopefully><
laters.
ps. scarlett johansson <3 :D
this week is going to be ultimate cramming for me, i think im gonna quit the comp (doubt it) when hsc finishes, just print out all my notes, and then wednesday night when i get off thatll be probably the last time ill be on the comp or on msn at least, ill probably still be blogging but yeah, needta get off the comp, wasted a lot of time procrastinating on the comp these holidays, sigh its fucken killing my study. if only i wasnt the procrastinator i was, id get good study done, but im easily distracted so it sucks. but oh wells, 4 more days need to put into motion some good study/cram.
argh this is pissing me off, my mouse the roller thing is like broken or something, so i cant use it to scroll down, its quite annoying coz im so used to it, now i hafta manually click. sad days !
back 2 back - chris brown, check that shizzle out =)
anyways im off to attempt to sleep early, my nights of sleeping at 5am havent stopped, hopefully tonight ill be able to sleep earlier, hopefully><
laters.
ps. scarlett johansson <3 :D
Friday, October 10, 2008
Happiness?
if happiness had a form what would it look like? it might be something like glass, because one doesn't notice it normally. however, it is actually there. As Proof, if you change the angle you look at it,the glass will reflect light it will state its presence and existence more eloquently than any other thing in this world
after hearing this a question popped into my head. am i happy?
its been weird lately, ive been having nearly sleepless nights and i just come to terms to why i cant sleep so much earlier. is it cause im not happy with things how they are? am i an insomniac now? or am i just, just..
sigh
i guess the real answer is, im not happy. garmon said he felt bad today. i dont know why but you dont need to be sorry or feel bad. its just i dont know how to explain. sorry if i ruin your mood or anything but yeah.
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (23:21):
im sure theres alot of stuff on ur mind
lol sam, no shit there is.
theres nothing much else to blog about, my mood as it is, is pretty fucken shit.
*fades out*
laters.
ps. sorry.
after hearing this a question popped into my head. am i happy?
its been weird lately, ive been having nearly sleepless nights and i just come to terms to why i cant sleep so much earlier. is it cause im not happy with things how they are? am i an insomniac now? or am i just, just..
sigh
i guess the real answer is, im not happy. garmon said he felt bad today. i dont know why but you dont need to be sorry or feel bad. its just i dont know how to explain. sorry if i ruin your mood or anything but yeah.
[★] // 1분 1초_____♥ x ' stitch<3'slilo ' x LUCSAUR&KY-REX says (23:21):
im sure theres alot of stuff on ur mind
lol sam, no shit there is.
theres nothing much else to blog about, my mood as it is, is pretty fucken shit.
*fades out*
laters.
ps. sorry.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Which To Bury, Us Or The Hatchet.
i went to state today with garmon, mishjeff, chris, iris, alias, roger and john came randomly. did the 1hr of biology that neon asked me to do these holidays so i guess im pretty happy, just have to keep that up.
it was an alright day, besdies the fact that i jsut dont get how someone can act so selfishly, yes i am referring to the one they call "" (ill just disclose this incase she reads it, doubt she does) but anyways, like what the fuck is your problem seriously, treating me like that, looking back at it in perspective i was just stunned at the time, coz i was literally what the fuck. like she comes up to me, in this bitchy tone " oh hey do you have my i.d ?" " uhh yeah" *goes through wallet and gives her it* " oh and can you remove those pictures from facebook" *she walks off* like the fuck?, not even a plz or thank you. like fucken hell, the fact that you did that i guess you are the bitch that everyone thinks you are for treating me like this, but the fact that you didnt even explain yourself that day like a week back about how things have changed and all you could say is " its complicated, maybe later?" is what hurts more, the fact that your treating me like jack shit now, not giving me an explanation. it fucken hurts, its just making me wonder now, did my friendship matter to you at all? like why give up on me, when all the other times we've been through alot, i have not once hindered to get your forgiveness and make things right again...fuck
*stops rant*
when i heard this "if theres someone who can inflict so much pain to you, theres someone definately who can give you just as much happiness" i kinda got at ease, whether or not you choose to believe that, i guess is up to you, but theyre words that are kidna getting me through this so yeah.
i slept at 5am again last night, sleeping patterns are fucked, sigh i woke up at 8am too and pranked garmon, he picked up so i just hung up, didnt know it was me, but yeah if your reading this garmon, deheh im kind of suprised i functioned today, only got like 3hrs of sleep so yeah wtf at me.
this song just popped up and its quit fitting with things;
RELIENT K - WHICH TO BURY, US OR THE HATCHET
I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget
and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened
And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for not
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far
Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault
I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
And wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
and one day we'll see this come around)
[x2]
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far
What happened to us
I heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...
its fitting, its funny how i always interwine parts of my life to a song, everyone does it even if they choose not to acknowledge it. this is why music is a big part of life, well for me it is.
anyways im off
laters
ps . i swore a lot in this blog, sorry
it was an alright day, besdies the fact that i jsut dont get how someone can act so selfishly, yes i am referring to the one they call "" (ill just disclose this incase she reads it, doubt she does) but anyways, like what the fuck is your problem seriously, treating me like that, looking back at it in perspective i was just stunned at the time, coz i was literally what the fuck. like she comes up to me, in this bitchy tone " oh hey do you have my i.d ?" " uhh yeah" *goes through wallet and gives her it* " oh and can you remove those pictures from facebook" *she walks off* like the fuck?, not even a plz or thank you. like fucken hell, the fact that you did that i guess you are the bitch that everyone thinks you are for treating me like this, but the fact that you didnt even explain yourself that day like a week back about how things have changed and all you could say is " its complicated, maybe later?" is what hurts more, the fact that your treating me like jack shit now, not giving me an explanation. it fucken hurts, its just making me wonder now, did my friendship matter to you at all? like why give up on me, when all the other times we've been through alot, i have not once hindered to get your forgiveness and make things right again...fuck
*stops rant*
when i heard this "if theres someone who can inflict so much pain to you, theres someone definately who can give you just as much happiness" i kinda got at ease, whether or not you choose to believe that, i guess is up to you, but theyre words that are kidna getting me through this so yeah.
i slept at 5am again last night, sleeping patterns are fucked, sigh i woke up at 8am too and pranked garmon, he picked up so i just hung up, didnt know it was me, but yeah if your reading this garmon, deheh im kind of suprised i functioned today, only got like 3hrs of sleep so yeah wtf at me.
this song just popped up and its quit fitting with things;
RELIENT K - WHICH TO BURY, US OR THE HATCHET
I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget
and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened
And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for not
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far
Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault
I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
And wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
and one day we'll see this come around)
[x2]
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far
What happened to us
I heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...
its fitting, its funny how i always interwine parts of my life to a song, everyone does it even if they choose not to acknowledge it. this is why music is a big part of life, well for me it is.
anyways im off
laters
ps . i swore a lot in this blog, sorry
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