Going The Extra Mile

music drowns out everything. its like when a certain song plays at a certain moment it kinda gets to you, like on the bus today i was listening to "A Bad Dream" - Keane and the moment seemed so right.. for a minute or two everything was going in slow motion or maybe that was coz i was sick or the bus driver was driving real slowly but like the moment was just there. i just love how music can be an escape from everything but also be meaningful. like how music can drown out everything but yeah.

fuck im still sick. though i dont feeel like coughing up blood like i was last night but yeah i guess its btter but fuck my throat still kills and everytime i cough i get a headache it fucken kills but i guess ill live with it.

im still in that weird state of mind i was yesterday or whenever i last blogged cept now i just feel disappointed and frustrated and probably still angry. at times i feel like no one cares. i just get so disappointed, disappointed that you cant do anything about it, its just something that happens. sigh... i just dont get it at times its like im always left out in the dark. i jsut feel like im an outcast just in the shadows. i hate that feeling. i just feel so disconnected from everything..

all in all in the end i guess sometimes all you can do is smile =)

"I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side" < -- what meaningful lyrics but yeah sigh i kinda wish things would lighten up with hsc and shit stress is just fucken getting to me fuck.

laters.

oh btw thanks bianca =)

ps. for more of an insight read the blog underneath this one

Echo

i dunno whats been happening these days
well today i had a weird feeling over come me, maybe coz im sick or something but i dunno it was a sad and frustrating feeling and i just dont get it, its like im getting angry at the world and i feel left out at the same time. like lately my mums been pissing me off at times and sometimes some of my friends piss me off too but i get over it, just small things these days get to me and its making me =(. but the bigger picture of this all i dont get. maybe i should sleep on it.

listen to the song " echo " -vertical horizon iitlll probably enlighten you suckas on how im feeling
mm i remember how they used that song in a montage of scenes in one tree hill. respect for that.
<-- yeah that was in the montage of scenes on one tree hill, the scene was the teacher was asking them to write down on a piece of paper one word they wanted the most, and lucas wrote that. and i guess that relates to me the most atm..but everyones looking for answers so yeah.

anyways
trials are in like 6 weeks fuck me dead i needta fucken start studying again or gg hsc

shout out to TING since shse all cool and all

note: must hang with ting this weekend

ps. garmon i love you
pps. no i dont or do i wink22
ppps. garmon .. shut up nehehehe

Alvin <3 Men

lol the title to my blog is kinda random its coz its richard told me to do it.

ANYWAYS today was mega stressing but at the same time relieving haha mega stressed coz maths was today and i was so underprepared for that so i was just stressing in the morning but after i got the test and looked at the paper im like in m head " not bad not bad"
and after 70 mins of hard work and sweat and shizzle it finished and i yelled out " THANK FUCKING GOD" once i got outta the room best feeling ever finishing a test coz you just are relieved ye
but all in all thanks for that good library sesssion yesterday garmon just studying maths mega best library session ever. it was also a good libary break when me and garmon journeyed to the depths of martin place to find a coffee place
we found a coffee place that had the bset coffee ever but yeah this is how the convo went

Francis: mang lets get coffee here
Garmon: nah man it looks dodgy
Francis: seriously just get coffee here it looks fine
Garmon: okay
*walks to the place*
garmon whispers: OMFG HOTTEST CHICK
Francis : i know man thats why i chose to buy coffee here fucka


whatta convo but yeah haha we bought coffee from this place that gave coffee cups that had MAP on the thing and i thought that was the name of the place
but me and garmon had a mini arguement and the place was actually called Valeva
but yeah me and garmon will start to go to that place everytime we're at state in order to be known as regular customers and get closer with that chick neheheh JOKES but she was hotskiees to the maxskiies why am i talking like this skiess but nothing beats b...'s hotness abahahahah
alkdfjslf


anwayys today after maths i bballed
and i pwnt.
nothing much to say
but pwnt.

LOL

back to pdhpe suckas.

Dickprints in the sand - Clare Yoo

LOLz yeah clare thought of this at the library today =)

You walked with me
Dickprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going

Yoo walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the gay

And just when I
I thought I'd lost my gay
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise yoo
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with dick
And dickspair

And I'll carry yoo
When you need a friend
You'll find my dickprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know yoo'll be there
Cause I can feel yoo
When your gay

I promise yoo
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with dickness and dickspair
Oh, I'll carry yoo
When you need a friend
You'll find my dickprints in the sand

[choir]

When your heart is full of dickness and dickspair
I'll carry yoo
When yoo need a friend

I promise yoo
I'm always there
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints
In the sand

(original song by leona lewis)

but yeah zomg finished my collage today thanks clarebear for helping me finish :)
would of died without your help
SO TEEWHY ^__^V

hahah now to make a response and write it over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again..
nehehe

Photobooth

ahha lately ive been listening to Death Cab For Cutie. preh cool band i recommend you people to listen to them. they remind me of a softer version of dashboard confessional but yeah good chillout music :D

anyways its exam week this week and suprisingly im not really that stressed..i am but like it didnt get to me as much as i thought it would. but yeah i had english today i think i proed it had 40mins wrote 4 pages so by calucalations i wrote a page per 10mins which is alright i guess but yeah i think i included everything in it but afterwards i was thinking " wtf did i write" but oh wells its over and done with 1 down 5 more to go

i got business 2mr. fuck im so not prepared for that shit i dont get whats going on lol no one is so GG haha prob write some draft reports 2mr morning but ye :D

ahah ii dunno why im still up i should be sleeping but i guess its coz i get to sleep in more coz im not showering 2mr morning coz clare wants to see my bed hair and also to compensate for her only having 10minutes to get ready today to catch the train with me ( AWW ISNT THAT SWEET CLARE I HOPE YOUR READING THIS LOL). its gonna be funny but i showered like half an hour ago so all good:D but ye i dunno i wonder how ill look LOL

i just want this test week over and done with so i can chillax and do what i want to do ahah but yes 4 more days to go 5 more tests GG
anyways imma quicken up this blog since sam is complaining :P but ye xD

good luck to clare and samantha for theyre religion assesments 2mr :D you guys will ace that shizzle so ye GOODLUCK :D and good luck to everyone else during assesment weeks i hope you guys all fail so that i can get a higher rank muahahah :P jokes

anyways im off to save the world
LATERS

rawr =d

wow i ahvent blogged in a long time haha sigh sorry folks i just havent had the time to blog recently
ive just been caught up in alotta work
fuck hsc will be the death of me
anyways ive been having this weird sleeping pattern
whre one night i sleep at like 11pm staright out and otheres i sleep at 2am doing i dunno wtfudge i am bt yeah its weird
but i guess its a friday and its alright to be awake at this hour so yeah =) but i got tutor 2mr so i gotta sleep soon mm anyways ive been kinda stressing lately. like assesments next week. ive been studying yeah but just not enough like zOMG:/ it just shits me sometimes like hsc and stuff sigh i think all the nights ive been up at 2 am are when my mind is just rambling on with thoughts abt everything and hsc and stuff
like im jsut so stressed abt it people say i should and thanks chris hwang for making the picture alright for me today thanks for like jsut answering my questions abt hsc all the best for you in uni man =)

anywaysy today was a err a random school day.. i only came for one period coz i jigged the last two to study in the libarry
it was alright coz i got some hardcore maths done but yeah waste of time. shoulda stayed home but i cant study at home so i guess its alright
anyways the day went by pretty quickly
hung with garmon most of the day preh good catchng up will jsut hanging with him
best times we have ;)
i spent last period in the library with lazy just talking about random shit had a good laugh and yeah went home and i dunno
i spent most of the arvo just like bumming arnd my house :/
fuck i needta hardcore study this weekend

pwnt.

Clare: " I prefer oral SOO much, when im up there its the BEST FEELING delivering it. Thats how i felt in my last english speech"

lool

i tried to walk into target today...
but i missed dahhaah